intricate

purified

2009-10-07T17:06:00.006+08:00

Not stressed. Cold.

Want me to hug you? x)

I'd let you hug me any day for any reason (:

If I don't have a reason, can I still hug you?

You can hug me for as long as possible.(: I'll just hug back. *maybe even do more ^^* -evil laugh-

Do more? Oooo i want that xD

O___O Let's see about that. :)

remember me

2009-10-04T13:46:00.002+08:00

Being on Tumblr is different.

I can't play around with the alignments and colours like on blogger anymore.

Now I can't show my creativity :(

track 2

2009-09-19T02:09:00.004+08:00

Your voice is the last thing I hear before I go to bed.

Your hug is what I long for when I'm all alone in bed.

Your charming smile that never fails to make my heart skip a beat.

Your speech that keeps playing like an addictive song in my head.

Your lips that I crave for everyday.

The text messages that I usually receive early in the morning.

The excitement that I get when I open my phone and see your face.

The nervous feeling that I get every time I see you.

The awkward moments that we always have.

That tingling feeling every time I hear you sing.

That smirk that you tend to do.

That tenacity that you have.

I'll always be here for you.

I'll miss you.

I love you.

part of the list

2009-09-15T20:06:00.002+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday Kamal Azraai!

Today is your day, have fun (:

kau bukan kekasihku

2009-09-12T23:52:00.004+08:00

I know I'm not allowed to think of you but I can't help it because today is your day and I have it in my mind. Today is for you to celebrate your day and it's harder to go through. The time that has it all, when you're 18.

Happy 18th Birthday Nik Adib

anugerah cinta

2009-08-28T06:02:00.007+08:00

Twentysixthofaugusttwothousandandnine

I opened my eyes and there I saw BearBear looking directly at me. Not a very pleasent thing to see first thing in the morning. Come on, a HUGE teddy bear with a creepy smile, laying beside you and just staring at you. Eee dah macam Chucky pula. Hahaha. Lya then entered the room. We talked about an hour or so. After all the chit chat, I took a shower then watched tv. We continued watching Hangover. Man, that movie was like so censored. Like Lya said, nasib baik Aiman tak ada. Haha. After the movie, played the guitar for a while. Then, we all dressed up to go to Pavillion to buka puasa. Her mom was honking downstairs because Lya was late. Arrived there, met with Iylia first. Then Nadjwa arrived. Hafsah, Aaron and Ana were late. Ordered, ate and camwhore. :D

Me, Aaron , Lya and Hafsah

(TGI Friday's)

Complete Fucktards: Aaron, Hafsah, Me,

Lya and Ana. (Baskin Robbins)

The whole gang ♥

xoxo,
naba

where the lines overlap

2009-08-24T03:24:00.011+08:00

I'm not going to post anything about my departure until it is officially confirmed. Nur Alia Hidayah, thank you for your post. i love you <3

Give me attention
I need it now
Too much distance
To measure it out
Out loud
Tracing patterns across a personal map
And making pictures where the lines overlap

Where The Lines Overlap - Paramore

That song just reminds me of us

How he's more experienced and

how he has been through a lot more than me

I just want to learn from him

We're lucky to have met each other.

A win, win situation

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I hate you.
Too bad, I care too much for you. I just hate your eyebrows. (:
Too bad cause it's my eyebrows
Hehe. And yet it's cause of those eyebrows I care for you so much in a way. (:
Eh? Why? I seriously hate you oh.
Why la pulak.
Because if kita tak kenal, it would have been easier for me. I wouldn't have gotten to know the caring ______. Who always care for me too much and I pun tak payah nk harapkan you sangat.
Nasha.
I would be all alone. Lg senang.
Be quiet.
-hugs-
I never regretted knowing you. Apart from the fact I made you cry. You have never been a burden to me. Put that in mind. I'm there for those who appreciate my help and you show the most appreciation.

carolina

2009-08-21T14:27:00.001+08:00

You know that feeling when you're with someone? That amazing feeling. That feeling that makes you smile for no apparent reason, that makes a part of your life worth living in and makes you feel that everything is alright even though it's not. Yeah that feeling.

Well, I miss it.

make-up smeared eyes

2009-08-17T20:18:00.003+08:00

Today is the 17th of August. Exactly a year ago, I was with someone. Someone that I loved so much. Someone who's very funny and shy. We went out on the 16th which was on a Saturday. That was also the first time I met with Adik. He wore his favourite blueish/greenish Topman tee. Which I had until he asked it back because he wanted to wear that tee during Cheer Comp 09. It was fine with me. It was his shirt anyway. Back to the story, he asked me to be his girlfriend through MSN since he didn't have a phone. Our relationship lasted for 4 months, I think. Surprisingly kan? A relationship where the guy doesn't have a handphone. Okay apa. :)

My wonderkid, always and forever.

ignorance

2009-08-16T02:29:00.003+08:00

It's through the eyes of someone that you can see whether the person is fine or not

People can say what they want

Lies are mostly words

Words that people believe

And trust,

That people put hope on.

NABA

vegas skies

2009-08-15T04:08:00.007+08:00

It was around 1 in the morning. He picked me up and we decided to just chill and get to know each other since this was our first time meeting each other. We went to Ampang and finally made a decision to go to Naili's. He went out of his car and opened the passenger door of his black Viva for me. I stepped out of his car and there I stood in front him. I was looking down and I saw that he was wearing sneakers. White sneakers to be exact and then from his shoes, I slowly looked up. Light blue jeans, a really cool belt, a blue and yellow Topman shirt and lastly, his face. First of all, he's really tall. Oh yeah, and skinny too. We just stared at each other for a moment.

After a while, we snapped out of the moment and then walked to the restaurant. We sat down and ordered drinks. I ordered an ice lemon tea while he ordered a float and some fries. It was awkward the whole way through because like I said, it was our first time. We started slow. He asked me a few questions and then I answered it obviously. Our orders arrived and then we started to talk about ourselves. Family backgrounds and stuff like that. After talking about our lives, he popped out a question that I didn't quite expected. He held both of my hands while sincerely looking me in the eyes and asked me whether I wanted to be his girlfriend.

new american classic

2009-08-08T23:46:00.001+08:00

Don't betray LOVE. It's the law of the universe.

darling

2009-08-08T13:31:00.005+08:00

don't believe the truth because the truth hurts

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here i sit in this chair, sweating because of the medication, trying to sum up everything that's happening to me while trying to breathe. the pain in my chest. now, to inhale and exhale is excruciating. it feels like there's needles stuck in your lungs. try breathing with that. the tiredness that overcomes no matter how long i sleep. the mask that i need to wear everywhere i go. i drown under my own hot breath. suffocating.
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let the music fade...

never say never

2009-08-04T19:23:00.002+08:00

is that someone worth missing? come on, you worry about that one specific person. you think about that person like a mad man. you'll be thinking things like, " where is he/she?, is he/she alright? , is he/she alright? " don't lie to me, everyone thinks like that about that certain someone in their life. it doesn't matter if it's your boyfriend, girlfriend, ex or if it's just your crush.

i don't know what to write anymore. sorry.

i'm slowly falling for you. like what the fuck man? i'm not suppose to.

differently

2009-07-28T23:17:00.002+08:00

You're still an idiot (: Don't ever think that way. No matter what, I'll be there for you. If you change for the good and forget me, I don't mind but if for the bad and you'll find me up your ass most of the time.

thank you. i really appreciate it <3

catch me

2009-07-18T14:49:00.002+08:00

i want to run. run to a place other than this but the thing is, i can't.

god, save me. i can't take this anymore.

elation

2009-06-23T14:23:00.002+08:00

do you remember the night we talked
about the moon and how it was half
like my heart when you're not around
gosh, i miss you now

i'm flying with elation
lost inside the glitter of your eyes

i don't want this moment to ever end
cause this is so perfect
please don't ever let me go
just lock your heart for me

do you remember the night you said
sweetheart, i don't want to lose you
then i realized this is true
baby, you are the one

i'm flying with elation
lost inside the glitter of your eyes

i don't want this moment to ever end
cause this is so perfect
please don't ever let me go
just lock your heart

promise me that you'll stay
and not be afraid
to lock your heart
on your sleeve

i don't want this moment to ever end
cause this is so perfect
please don't ever let me go
just lock your heart

i don't want this moment to ever end
cause this is so perfect
please don't ever let me go
just lock your heart for me
lock your heart for me

you're the other half of my moon

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zUFZ4qjgIko

terrified

2009-05-25T19:15:00.004+08:00

sikit je lagi, i swear to god. sikit je lg and that's it. memang dah cross the line.
come on. tidur pun salah. tak makan pun salah. tidur dengan papa pun salah. aku tahu la apa yang aku patut buat. ni everytime nk tanya, 'Amirah, dah makan belum? makan banyak ke tak?' pukimak lancau ah. suka hati aku la nk makan bila, banyak ke tak. just know my maid was bragging about me sleeping with my dad. 'tadi mak tok tanya, dah bagi tahu Amirah belum yang dia tak boleh tidur dengan papa? dah mak cik, saya dah bagi tahu. dia menjawab balik...' (panjang lagi) ya allah ya tuhanku. aku sabar je duduk kat rumah ni. get me out of this house. PLEASE. sayang, why do you need to go when i need you the most?

you do, you don't

2009-05-10T01:12:00.002+08:00

tell me something,

why do humans have feelings?

why do we need to have feelings?

all the good feelings are great but the other feelings?

agony.

I'm falling apart

I'm barely breathing with a broken heart

That's still beating

remembering sunday

2009-03-21T00:25:00.003+08:00

how do you feel when you pour all your hopes and feelings to someone because you thought that was the right thing to do but in the end, it was all for nothing?

deeper conversation

2009-03-15T11:54:00.009+08:00

the time we have is not enough. time is never enough in our lives. knowing someone takes a lifetime. every minute counts when you're with someone. even though he is going somewhere or he will still be here. we never know what could happen the next day.

mader, i hate the fact that you're leaving. it's stupid that we can't get to know each other better. i know it seems like im overreacting or something but you're gonna be away for god knows how long. people change by time and i can't expect that you're going to be the same mader that i know right know when you come back.

i can't remind you all of the awesome memories we had like farah had with you. i kind of envy the blog that farah wrote about you. you guys have been through so many things together. thick and thin. well, let's just make the most with what we have right?

i don't really know you that well, so i can't say much about you. all i know is that you're mahadhir bin mohd. you're caring, funny, cute, charming and i think the only guy who can pull off purple colored hair. you have dimples, you're tall and skinny and you like to shop at pavi.

when you see a thing and you like it, you will immediately buy it. you favorite shop is forever 21 for some strange reason. you have 6 siblings and you're the fourth son. you first brother is in Ireland and you're third brother is in Egypt if i'm not mistaken.

im very observant. so mind the little details that i noticed. well, today is sunday and you're leaving tomorrow (kot) and you already have a girlfriend. congratulations i might say. i hope that things will work out for you guys.

enough of me crapping, i hope you will have fun there. study hard. be someone useful when you're done.

And I was going to tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own

often tonight

2009-02-24T16:39:00.004+08:00

i was awaken by a loud thump. i opened my eyes and i saw a figure staring at my guitar that was in front of my bed. i looked at the figure for quite some time because i thought that maybe it was my maid or something. then i realized that it wasn't my maid, it was someone else. i startled by the presence of him. i was in shock. the figure came beside my bed and threatened me. while holding a knife, he said, " lu tutup muka dgn selimut sebelum aku bunuh kau!". those were the exact words. the figure turned out to be a man. i could not explain how i felt at that very moment. under the covers, i waited. i waited until i was sure that he's gone. i peeked from my blanket and he was no where in sight. i got up from my bed and i locked the door. i was sitting on my bed, terrified.

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now, i can't sleep at night. every time i lay on my bed or when i close my eyes, i could see the man in front of me. coming towards me with his knife, threatening me.

TRAUMATIZED

have a little faith in me

2009-02-16T15:25:00.008+08:00

i was walking to our usual table when i arrived at school. i was walking and when i looked straight ahead, i saw fatini. is this for real? isn't she suppose to be in terengganu? i thought she accepted the mrsm offer? as i came closer, it was her!! i was shocked. she came last friday(i think) to say her last goodbyes and now she's here in school. with her school uniform and school bag. her hair all tied up. i asked her, kau bukan patut kat terengganu ke? aku tak jadi pergi. jauh sangat la terengganu, she replied. now you know that terengganu is so damn far. she finally got the message.

MONDAY(16/2/2009)

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i'm addicted to your voice. addicted katanya. -.- i talked to aniq yesterday. kuat merapu sial dia tu. but it's okay. i'm use to it.

SUNDAY(15/2/2009)

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saturday was a school day. cuti ganti for chinese new year if i'm not mistaken. i went to school because we we're going to the MPO thingy. the first thing i thought when i woke up was, it's a saturday. sekolah doh! i went to school dgn muka 'toye' bak kata fatin. when people ask, nasha, kau kenapa? hari ni sekolah doh. dah la sabtu, i replied. after recess, we gathered and off we went to the MPO. mpo sumpah best doh. the theme was MOVING PICTURES . the paintings was awesome and some of the artists are kind of cute/hot. xP after the mpo, i changed my clothes and went to see my family who were at the sanfransisco steak house. dad, ammar, amin, mak tok , tok ayah and kakak was there. after eating, we went back home to rest for a while then we came back to klcc because dad, ammar and amin were going to watch a malay cartoon movie while me and kakak were going to watch the curious case of benjamin button. a very interesting movie i might say. brad pitt was hot (; after sitting in the cinema for two and a half hours, we went back home. i finally went back to dad's house after 4 months i think. i only went there because aqhlef's tee is there. he's been nagging to me about his shirt since last year and finally, i have it. x ingin pun aku dengan baju kau tu.

SATURDAY(14/2/2009)

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i'm longing for your voice. to hold your hand and look into your eyes. intensely staring just to make you know that i love you. to be with you. to laugh at your jokes. to see you smile.

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you're sweet in many ways. i can't explain how nice you are to me. this astonishing feeling that you make me feel. the way you treat me, all the right words at the right time and the way you make me smile by your words. you're perfect in many ways AS.

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The way that I feel the way that I'll remember it

2009-02-12T17:52:00.003+08:00

i miss you so much.

i seriously do.

my wonderkid, always and forever.

With next to nothing, but open hands.

2009-02-04T15:52:00.002+08:00

hold on Rye.

i know you can do it.

parker

2009-02-04T15:25:00.003+08:00

at first, internet until 7. then, the door will be locked.

now, no more tv during weekdays.

gila ke apa orang tua tu? aku dah sengsara dengan kejadah kau last year. cukup ar. last year aku tolerate dgn kau pun sbb PMR. kalau x, tiada maknanya. ni this year. form 4 doh. baru je start. dah xde tv. " buat apa tgk tv? wasting time je. now, malam2 after homework, kena buat revision." sial doh kau org tua. aku this year dah cukup baik siapkn all of my homework. ni nk suruh aku buat revision? aku tahu la kena buat tp cerita everyday sampai no tv doh? sumpah aku menunggu je masa kau kena gali masuk dlm kubur tu.

bruised

2009-01-29T21:54:00.003+08:00

anonymous : to me it's crap but to you it's real

thank you so much.
now i realize who i really am to you.

running away

2009-01-29T01:31:00.007+08:00

how can you do this to me?
i'm really sorry. i didn't mean it
but you still did it
i was stupid. now i realize, that you're the only one and there's no one else for me
but how can i be sure that you are going to be true to me?
because i will die without you in my heart. You're my everything and i can't bare it without you
awww baby, thats so sweet
noo hun, your sweeter. i love you more than my own life
would you die for me?
i would if it makes you happy babe
promise me that you'll never leave and you will be here for me until eternity
forever sygg. i promise you with my very soul
im speechless sayang
im very sorry
baby, im speechless in a good way
me too
you made my day(:
i love you so much sygg(:
i love you too honey (:
your my dream girl tau. jangan lari from my life anymore kay?
trust me sayang, i wont. i'll always be here for you. and i'll always be there for you too
for the better and worst
till death do us apart?
yes bbe
when will we meet? im dying to see you. to hold your hands, be in your arms and just be with you
i'll always be there with you. in your heart and in your dreams
i know but i want to meet you, to feel your presence
i'll run straight to your hse right nw and i'll throw pebbles at your window. we'll go somewhere tht no one can see us. we'll be tgether then
im waiting sayang
you wait there. i'll come as fast as possible
you wanna know something?
yes?
i've never felt like this in a long time
felt like wht sygg?

this amazing feeling when im talking to you or when we're together. that warm feeling deep inside. the feeling that makes you know that everything is alright even though it is not.

what get's you through the night?

2009-01-27T02:36:00.004+08:00

i looked up and there was this tall figure with a black polo shirt and dark blue shorts. his hair was kind of shaggy. i kept looking at him because i want to see his face. he sat down and from the place that i sat, i could see his face, clearly. his skin was kind of dark. not really dark though. he's face was well defined and his smile is oh so charming. after looking at him for a while, i realized something. he's the guy that i saw last year. no wonder his face was so familiar.

adam asked me to write like this because he said it will make my blog more interesting. -.- i don't really care about my blog but i'm taking his advice and from today onwards, if i'm not lazy, i will write as if i'm writing a story. to sprouse things up a bit. haha. i went out yesterday with kakak and nurul and yes finally is back from new york. FINALLY! she gave me tee. an I<3NY tee yo be exact. haha. thank you nurul. we went to klcc to watch underworld 3 : rise of the lycans.

malas nk tulis dah.
pening kepala.
bye.

shady business

2009-01-26T11:10:00.003+08:00

adik, izzy tu boyfriend adik eh?
NO! mmg x la dia boyfriend i mama. bestfriend i suda.

adik, kamal tu boyfriend adik eh?
eh, mana ada. kawan je.

adik, danial tu boyfriend adik eh?
danny? mana ada. dia dah ada girlfriend la.

that was my conversation with mama three days ago.

K : eh, tak keluar?
N : nope. my mom x kasi keluar.
K : i baru je nk ajak you keluar.

mama who was beside me reading my convo with him interupts.

adik, bg tahu dia kalau nk keluar dgn adik, datang rumah and amik. kalau dia nk stay for lunch pun boleh.

N : kamal, my mom kata kalau you nk keluar dgn i, you kena amik i kat rumah.
K : i malas la nak drive.
N : oh ya, and she said that you can stay for lunch if you want to.
K : don't lie to me. you biar betul.
N : i swear to god i'm not lying. she's right beside me.

that was my conversation with mama and kamal on saturday evening, in the living room. lebih kurang mcm tu la. i can't exactly remember the exact words, can i? is my mom okay? she never likes me guy friends. execpt for ijam. haha. ni dia siap ajak datang rumah? lg best. weird much.

my last post was about new year. it's been a long time since i last blogged. sorry about that. form 4 has been treating me like hell. i'm always busy with homework and what not. if you guys are curious, i'm in art stream taking accounts. no add maths for me. yeay! it's kind of weird because most of my friends, they're all in science stream. biology, chemistry and physics. hahaha. aku x de tu doh. aku ada accounts, economy and literature. lg best. :D

Happy Chinese New Year to all of my chinese friends!
sekolah kita cuti panjang doh. be grateful! haha.

Happy Belated Birthday to NUR ALIA HIDAYAH BT SAMSURI!
i did wish her on her birthday. aku xde la bodoh mana nk lupa bestie punya birthday. sorry i couldn't come last saturday. my mom tu. dia kata, kalau nk keluar, this week baru boleh. monday ada, tuesday ada and wednesday pun ada. pelik betul la dia tu. oh ya, I<3YOU. (:

aku tahu ada grammar, spelling mistakes and ayat yg mcm keling sikit.
just abaikn kalau ada.

sailing in the dark isn't smart kid!

2009-01-01T06:18:00.003+08:00

hello, hello 2009.

today ayah treated us for dinner at a restaurant called, puteri. the shop was empty for some strange reason. there was only two families there. i so pity the shop. haha. after dinner, me and kakak persuaded mom to send us to the curve and she gave us the green light to go there. (: dad texted me in the evening asking kakak if we wanted to join him at starbucks. i was like? biar betul, dia salah hantar ke apa? then i told him that maybe later we're going to the curve. he said to text him when we're there.

arrived there and the first person i called was lya. she was in front of cineleisure, so we went there. man! there was a lot of people at the curve. most of them are teenagers. hot guys, hot girls. every single person you could imagine was there. we were walking and then finally, we arrived in front of cineleisure. mak aii! ramai kot orang kat depan tu. we decided to go to the main entrance to look for her. i was searching and looking for her. then when i turned around, i saw haniff.

i wanted to go up to him and say hi but segan doh sbb x pernah jumpa. i called him and asked him to look in front. haha. he said that he already saw me and tried to call me but he couldn't get through. after talking with him for a while, i went to search lya. finally, jumpa pun dia. she was with alif and apek and all. i didn't want to interupt them so i said hi, chit chat a little bit and then chow. i went back to the place where i saw haniff and he was still there.

kakak wanted to eat baskin robin so we went there with haniff, oyean and wich. all of them are adik's friends. it's kind of weird but who cares. dah jumpa kawan, lepak je la kn. we went there and every single shop was full. mcm fucker sial! then we stand at the pavement like a bunch of idiots for a while. while standing like a bunch of idiots, i met teera. hugged her and she asked me to teman her to go to cineleisure because she wanted to see nina and lya. i said no because nk jln dekat tmpt ketupat tu satu hal doh. sorry teera.

then, oyean unexpectedly met her friends. she wanted to follow them dan maknanya we have to follow too. they wanted to go to cineleisure. kena juga lalu tmpt ketupat tu in the end. -.- walked there and entered cineleisure. then once again, we were standing like a bunch of idiots in the middle of the ground floor. i was looking around then i saw Dan which was weird. haha. said hi and all then he wanted to go to his shop on the first floor. when he left kakak said, " adik, tu bukan kawan hang ke?" i looked to my left and aaron was there. mcm biasa la kn, hi, hi and then bye. hugged her for a long time because i miss her so much!

i went back to haniff. we were tired of standing so we decided to sit in front of the nike shop. kakak wanted to go the toilet so dia pun pegi la kn. haha. i sat with haniff, oyean and wich. we were sitting and wich was taking pictures of us. all of a sudden, the security guard came to us and everybody pun bgn and mcm menggelabah sbb igtkn security guard tu nk halau. i was still sitting on the floor then the guard told me not to lean against the besi thingy. i was like, laaa, igtkn nk halau. hahaha. oyean's friends decided to go outside and haniff asked me to follow him and then i realized that kakak xde lg. so i asked him to go ahead first and i'll call him bila kakak dah sampai.

i called kakak and asked her to come back because everybody was staring at me because i'm a girl and i'm all alone, sitting on the floor. weird much. she arrived and jumpa balik dgn haniff. we were outside and once again, a bunch of idiots standing doing nothing. we were waiting for the clock to struck 12 when suddenly someone stepped on my right shoe. i swear to god aku baru nk maki hamun sape yg pijak my shoe. i turned right and no one was there. then someone stepped on my left shoe. ni sumpah nk naik angin dah. i turned left and there he was, standing in front of me, Dan.

we talked for a while. when we were talking, he recieved a phone call. from i was standing, i looked in front. all of a sudden, white foam was all over me. haniff came to me and aplogize saying that it was an accident, he didn't meant to spray the foam at me. he helped me wipe off the foam all over my face, hair and clothes. he was so nice. *melting* then the fireworks were on. after a while, Dan needed to go. he said that he was performing later. the place that we were standing was awesome. the view was great. i took haniff's camera to take some picture. for some strange reason, my hands were shaking. i don't know why. it was so weird. then i asked kakak to take the pictures.

after all the screaming and white foam, we decided to go to the mamak stall dekat tesco. when we arrived, the place was full. at that time, i was reading some messages that all my friends sent. then all of a sudden, i heard someone calling my name. i looked up and there was aidil. we talked for a few minutes. he asked me what's up and stuff. while we were talking, i looked at haniff. he seemed mad. sorry haniff. aidil is just a friend. well, he's actually hafsah's friend but kawan la juga tu kn? when i went to our table, the mamak was giving the water that they ordered.

sumpah mcm celaka pukimak lancau punya kedai! boleh x dia kasi air dlm paper cup? sumpah mcm fucker. kakak was drinking air limau then she told me that it tasted like pipe water. i called the mamak and told him about the water. i asked him to make a new one. serupa x payah, rasa sebiji sama. then i was really curious. i wanted to know how much is that one cup of air. he said it was rm1.80.
mmg kena maki hamun la mamak tu dgn aku. mcm cibai je air paper cup yg xsedap tu rm1.80. sial nk mati oh. oyean's friend ordered fried rice bila mamak tu nk kasi, titibe ada this other mamak pegi cium mamak yg pgg nasi tu punya cheek. EEEWWW!!! geli nk mati siot. lepas tu xde selera nk mkn or minum pun. i swear to god.

then balik. pegi 7-11 jap nk beli credit but xde. then pegi la balik kayu nk ckp bye2. dah ckp apa semua, hugged haniff then we walked up the hill tmpt mama nk amik. sat down for a while then mama pun sampai. masa kat dalam kereta, mama dgn ayah gaduh. benda kecil boleh gaduh. mama ni pun satu, haih. sampai rumah, terus naik atas la apa lg. they were shouting kat bawah. xnk aku dgr, buat apa? mmg terlentang kat katil terus la kn. i texted kamal wishing him a happy new year and all. then i asked where he was just now. he said, the curve. celaka betul. kalau x boleh jumpa. i didn't call or texed him because sebelum ni dia mcm xnk gila pegi the curve. sekali, mmg celebrate dekat the curve. sumpah mcm, EEEE!

oh yeah, ada time dekat cineleisure sebelum ddk dekat depan nike tum ada jumpa hariz, alif and arman. lupa nk tulis and malas nk scroll balik naik atas. that's all for now, bye. (;

ps; sorry for the grammar mistakes and typing error

akan tiba

2008-12-28T19:27:00.001+08:00

we don't need to let go of everything we used to know. cherish the memories that we have. it seems like the ending but it's just the start. even though you're far away, you will always be in my heart. in a blink of an eye, you're going. moving, going to somewhere far. all hopes and dreams are crushed but what can we do? nothing, just hope for the best and move on.

life is not a song. a friend once told me that life is full of surprises. good ones, bad ones and unexpected ones. these surprises will still come whether you like it or not. focus on the good surprises, it does not matter if it's in the past, present or future, it is still a surprise.

when you're there, just close your eyes and make believe that where you are standing is the place you want to be. we all hope for the best when you're there.

we love you,
i love you.

not enough

2008-12-22T01:44:00.003+08:00

nasha, kau dah tahu pasal hafiz?

hafiz mana ni and knp dgn dia?

hafiz lya.

oh, haphiz la. knp dgn dia?

dia meninggal.

kau biar betul? kau jgn buat lawak doh.

betul la.

i was shocked. i couldn't say anything. he's gone. gone forever.

ya, what exactly happened to him?

ok i cerita. dorg 8 org pegi langkawi. vacation lah ramai2. then masa naik telaga tujuh yg waterfall tu, he insisted on going last. so dorg daki daki daki lah batu2 tu. sekali dgr bunyi mcm org jatuh + jerit. diorg tak smpat nak toleh ke blkg tgk apa jd, dah nmpk arwah floating ikut arus air turun terus ke bawah waterfall yg tinggi nak mati tu. dia jatuh terhantuk kepala dia kat batu, tergelincir. kepala blkg dia broken pecah, bahu patah and kaki patah. dorg kejar dia smpai kat hilir waterfall tu. dorg jumpa pak arab ni tgh nak tarik the body to the riverside. dorg tak pikir apa dah time tu, tmpt yg restricted area pun dorg main redah sbb nak selamatkan hafiz. dorg pegi kat pak arab tu, tnya. he just said 'im sorry im so sorry'. panggil bomba, polis and all. around 8 smthng bru polis bawak the body to the hospital sbb before that dorg nak ambik gmbr dulu. tp masa jenazah dia smpai kat rumah, muka dia bersih. muka dia ibarat mcm senyum tau. mcm happy puas camtu. wangi. tp badan jela, berlumuran darah. masa nak kebumikan pun darah tak habis mengalir keluar lg. atmosphere kt rumah dia mmg sedih. dia pergi tak terseksa, allah sempat tarik dia before sakit tu semua bunuh dia. allah lg sayang dia, dia seorg yg baik, tu sbb allah nak simpan dia.

al- fatihah.

nothing feels real anymore

2008-12-11T04:19:00.003+08:00

for some strange reason, i cant stop crying

crying wont get you anywhere. trust me. you need to be strong to survive in this world. simple things like this is not a problem but if you make it become your kryptonite then it will kill you. so hold on.

F, you have not been in my shoes

but i study everything about your shoes

i have been strong but these past few weeks, benda kecil pun i boleh nangis

alaaaa. here what i tell you the secret of life. i may look bad vain and weird but when i came across something that is beyond me and i cant handle it. i always refer to the one and only, ALLAH s.w.t. P.U.S .H Pray Till Something Happen or just think about god .

wait, why the hell am i telling you about this?

because I'm a good friend and trustable

i don't want to live like this, seriously. I'm tired living my own life. a life that i cant bear

chill. maybe you're too young. wait till one point when you don't care about anything but yourself and the one you care. at time i promise you, you feel better and stronger because I've been this road before

Ive been through a lot, trust me. going to court when i was 11. choosing who i wanted to stay with. my mom doesn't trust me. I'm not talking to my dad. living with my mom right now, dgn tgh gaduh. I'm tired F. I'm just tired of this. all of this.

life is simple. any road you take will do fine but make sure you don't look back and regret. so what you got to do is talk to you mother. talk to your sis.

talk to her and say what?

tell her that you had enough. tell her that why cant it just be us. your mum, you and ya sis. its better.

only certain ppl know who i really am and one of them is you for some strange reason.

there is not need to be sad. just stay strong and keep on pushing the pressure and pain away. you're sill young. when i was 15, i break almost of the rules in life and my mums rules and it was fun.

like i said, you haven't been in my shoes. i cant just break the rules

see, you're scared of the world. you're scared of something is bigger then you. fuck these people to trying to destroy ya life. fuck all the rules. just believe in yourself and the people you love the most
and everything will be alright. here what i tell you. every time you go to bed, tell ya self that tomorrow is better then today and when you wake up make sure that you have all the happy thought and memories with you and you will do fine the whole day. trust me.

i don't believe in myself. i feel like giving up.

that's the problem. you can give up in everything but never give up on your self. what kind of human are you? come on, buckle upppp

i don't want to do this anymore

it will stop if you want it to stop. it will start if you the one who start it first. look at me, i have a dozen of problems but i say fuck this problem. i own myself. i control it. i have the power to say yes or no and the rest i let god do his job. so go out have fun. make the people around you smile and feel good. ask ya mum to go dinner. just the 3 of you. sleep in her room to show her that she is not alone. come onnnnn. family first.

you just know how to say the right words huh?

because i studied psychology and i live my life the fullest. my mum can say no to me but i always say yes cause life is short go out and experience it

life is like shit

life is like shit because you think it that way. tell your self life is good. i want to make a change. not I'm gonna change but I WANT TO MAKE A CHANGE. tell ya self that. throw the negative side of you. you don't need them. put the positive side. tell ya self.everything that happened must be for a reason and if you cant find why it happened, just tell ya self its god plans. so smile to the world

i don't want to smile. life is like shit. full stop. end of story

see that's ya problem. full of negative. you gonna end up screwing up ya life and die alone. nobody is gonna help you

like you care if I'm going to die alone

yep its true. i don't care but at some point I'm gonna think what should Ive done to leave someone alone and die and i will regret and be sad. i hate that sadness. i pun tak tau laaaa. you're 15 and full of sadness

yeap and that's my problem, not yours. i have to deal with it not you

thanks for helping me to understand the sad part of life that i never gone through or study. i hope you find the path or road that you really looking for

let me sign

2008-12-02T18:48:00.000+08:00

this is Danish. arwah auntie elaine's youngest son.

beauty in the breakdown

2008-11-26T16:00:00.000+08:00

i love you shazwina. (:

and suddenly

2008-11-23T03:34:00.005+08:00

death. it's an unexpected thing. you can die at any moment. we walk around knowing and having confidence that we are going to die when we are old. enjoy life, get married, have kids, have grandchildren and all those stuff. but what do you do when you know that you are going to die in the near future?

A TRIBUTE TO ELANENOR,
a wonderful auntie, wife and mom.

al-fatihah

auntie elaine, i didn't know you at all until last week when i visited you at the hospital. i think i've seen your daughter, Aween at someone's house. that's all. i discovered that you had bone cancer and it has been five years. auntie elaine, you are a true fighter. even the doctors said that usually cancer patients will survive for only two years or three years top but you, damn. for five years. i truly adore you auntie elaine. you even got pregnant last year and you had Danish. who would ever thought that you would get pregnant with your condition. gila hebat la. we visted you everyday since you were admited into the hospital. well, not exactly everyday. we didn't see you for only two days. almost everyday, i would see you, sitting on the bed with your oxygen mask on. you looked so tired, so restless. everyone wanted to help you but we could not do anything. this was your final phase. your condition was terminal. it was just the matter of time.

last friday was the last time i saw you and for the first time, you held me. me, mom, auntie ati and auntie elaine's mom was in the room. we were just chilling in the room. then suddenly, you were asking for help. you said that you were in pain. everyone asked you why. then you said that your back hurts and you wanted to sit on this float to ease your back pain. try sitting down since raya? mana x sakit oh. mom and auntie elaine's mom tried to lift you to let you sit on the float but they did not have the strengh to lift you. then, i was the next victim to lift you. you held me tightly because you did not have any strength to lift your own body. you were that weak, auntie elaine. that's the only memory i have with you.

on saturday afternoon, ayah recieved a call saying that you passed away. i was still asleep obviously. then mom woke me up and told me the bad news. quickly we dressed up and we went to the hospital. when we arrived, we did not went to the usual elevator. instead of going up, to the 5th floor and entering to room 509 we went tp LG (lower ground) to the morgue. all of ayah's relatives were there. there was this room that people kept going in and out. then i looked in the room and saw you laying on to a metal table with white cloth wrapped around your body. i could not enter the room. it was too devestating.

while waiting for the people at the hospital to send you to the masjid near your house, we went to your house. then we went to the masjid. waited for a while over there. then you arrived. i went into the masjid and saw you fully wrapped with white cloth. everyone was surrounding you. that was the time when i cried my eye balls out. i saw your eldest son Aqib standing beside you crying. i realized that you are actually going and that will be the last time i will see you again. after everyone was done, we went to the graveyard. it was raining like hell but what can we do? the funeral must go on. everyone was surrounding your grave. they did not matter if it was pouring rain, all they wanted to do was see you for the last time.

auntie elaine, i hope for the best for you in the afterworld. i will definately miss you even though i did not you that well. i hope that i would know you much more than this but what can we do? now you are gone.

p/s : sorry to say but uncle alham (auntie elaine's husband), i think you're an ass hole.

*sorry for the grammar mistakes and typing errors.

her spiral necklace

2008-11-16T20:32:00.002+08:00

just know that i am here for you. we' re suppose to go through thick and thin together. i can't stand sitting here everyday. wondering wheather you're okay or not. tell me something. you won't even give me a hint. i care for you. so, just tell me something. anything would do. for the mean time, i'll just wait and say that everything is ok.

we have been together for 3 months.
iloveyousomuchsayang
17th of August 2008.

hiding inside

2008-11-15T04:29:00.002+08:00

a person that you barely acknowledge in the past is the one you're close to now. time has been wasted. could that one specific reason make us who we are know? no one ever knew that something so small could grow into something big. sadness overcomes when that one reason is coming. deny it as much as you want, the day will come. so little time is all we have know. all we can do know is wish. wish that you're not going to leave. as ridiculous as it sounds, it's something that we all hope for. secrets has been shared, advices were given and tears have been shed.

abdul hakim abdul rashid,
i will miss you. <3

close your eyes

2008-11-15T03:41:00.001+08:00

i was standing before you, with words that wasn't suppose to be spoken. recklessly it was told. words that you shouldn't know. just hope that forgiveness would cover the stupid mistake made. underneath those words, we discover something new. facts that you don't believe was true. believing in someone is something that should be done. repeatedly it was told, yet it was ignored. the truth has been spoken. deny it as much as you want, it is still fact. trust me when i say these words.

a smile now is fake. most of the answers that was asked are not true. it's a lie. you want to manipulate the other person by saying that you're okay. everyone has been fooled in front of their eyes.

who knew that three words could bring such an impact. you want to help them but are they willing to help themselves? when you ask someone, they say it's only a game that the player is playing. should you trust that someone? absolutely. that someone knows the player well then you do. patience is something that should be buried into ourselves. nothing else can be done. the player is yours. no matter what he has done, he is still your player.

1 2 3 4

2008-11-14T03:46:00.000+08:00

meet Nisa a.k.a shuweetz gurlzz. HAHAHA!! we were bored and we were waiting for A. A, apa lama sangat main game ni? :|

song in my head

2008-11-13T14:44:00.000+08:00

The long way home was the only choice I had, if I use the usual way home, there was no way I could see him. Come on Alyssa, you are my best friend. You have been there for me through thick and thin. I barely ask you for favors. Just help me out this one time. I have been through a lot to get where I am here. I have lied to my parents, i ignored all my other friends and their opitinions about what I'm doing. This is something that I have never done before. This is so not me, chasing people around the country. Help me Lys, you are my only hope.

false hope maybe

2008-11-13T01:09:00.000+08:00

n: trust is a lie nobody ever knows.

A: true true..

A: soo true..xD

n: haha

n: people say that trust is what you're suppose to believe in. an act of faith or hope. but can we really trust the source?

A: life is all about gambling..the question is..are you willing to gamble?

n: but does gambling solve the problem?

A: maybe..maybe not..intelligence of the person influence the decision of the gamble..
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n: have you ever wished that your life could be written into a song? lyrics of your own. you're the writer. you can determine what the story line will be. you will never have an unhappy ending.

A: nope

n: and why is that?

A: life is full of surprises..if i write the songs..i mesti nk everything is perfect..

n: but in certain lives, all the surprises are not pleasant. can you live a life with surprises that you don't want?

A: that's life..its a journey..you can't expect all the roads are perfectly done..it will not be interesting if everything is alright..

n: but if you have the choice to pick between a perfect life and a life with many unpleasant surprises, which would you choose?

A: i would definitely choose life with many unpleasant surprises..

n: if you have to go through the life with many unpleasant surprises without any of your awesome friends, would you still choose it?

A: yes

n: the many unpleasant surprises is mostly about your family. living with them is like living in hell.

A: people say.."dunia ni berpusing"..i hold on strong to that quotation..so..if you are livin in hell right now..maybe someday you will find your heaven..someday..sometime..

n: but i cant stand living in hell anymore. what should i do?

A: be patient..the rewards are worth it..if you can hold on right now..you will be stronger in 10 years time..trust me..its worth it..

n: i'm not holding on, i'm hanging on.

A: that's good enough..if you can hang on right now..you will survive any obstacles in life later on..but you have to learn your mistakes and people around you that make mistakes..observe and learn how to overcome it just in case if it happens to you..

n: its happening right in front of my eyes. i'm clueless.

A: learn...in 10 years time..your knowledge is the precious thing in the world..even money cant overcome the knowledge and experience..

static

2008-10-30T17:07:00.000+08:00

cause' everytime i try to talk to you

i end up being so confused

like you can't hear a word i'm saying

when i'm trying to be close to you

i'm having trouble getting through

i can't stand it

it's so tragic

i feel static between us

lyric lagu di atas tidak ada kena mengena dengan hidup saya.

this is my second blog this month. haha. second if i'm not mistaken. record tu weyh! today at school, we didn't do anything much. but ada org from JAWI datang. they showed us how to menguruskn jenazah. gila bapak la weyh. but as usual, i didn't hear the ceramah sbb it was so boring. and agak tidak faham. but yg i tau, kain kapan for perempuan kena ada 5 and for lelaki 3.

that's all i know. hhahaha. gila sedih. :P

we are very naughty. ahaha. we didn't went to the personality quiz thingy. sungguh malas. we stayed in class. borak memanjang. i entered class this morning, i sat down for a while and went to see Hafsah. banyak rindu sama dia. lama x jumpa. dia dah potong rambut. nampak sungguh comel.

(: then story-story. berapa hari x jumpa, byk plak story dia. haha. najwa pun ada story utk i pasal dia and farid semalam. then we went to my class to hang out. then i saw Lya. fuhh. her eyes were swollen and ada eyes bags warna hitam. ( mmg la eyes bags warna hitam. haha ) i was like, is she okay? she doesn't seem okay. then i asked Nisa. she said that she had an argument with her mom last night. haish auntie. x perlu la nak marah-marah Lya. bukanyya dia buat apa pun. free-free je kena marah dengan auntie. auntie perlu chill. x elok marah-marah, nanti cepat tua. hahaha. dah-dah. mana bole cerita detail-detail. hal peribadi orang la.

then bersembang-sembang dengan Hafsah and Nadjwa. i got new themes from Hafsah. thanks babe. (: selepas itu, kami terdengar bunyi yang sungguh mengancam. haha. bunyi bell sudeyh. suspense je korang. mkn, mkn , mkn then assembly. puan T asked the form 3 and form 4 girls to stay back for a while. she announced that there is goin to be a competition. a logo competition for 110th anniversary for our school. we need to design a logo and submit it to her on wednesday. when teacher was announcing the competition, Hafsah, Lya and Nadjwa looked at me. i was like, what?

haha. dorang suruh masuk. ye la ye la. i masuk la. mana tau terpilih, nnt dapat la hadiah. hhehehe. and kalau terpilih, cun la logo kita next year. woot!! cun habis.

after we were dismissed, we thought of going back to class. malas la nk dengar pasal pengurusan jenazah. then, alahaai. terkantoi plak dgn puan S. nk x nk, kena la masuk hall. ish betul oh. during the ceramah, i discovered that my ankle still hurts. i can't even duduk bersila. bila la nk sembuh wahai ankleku? dah lama sebenarnya i jatuh. still x baik-baik lg. haish. apa la nk jd? moral of the story is, masa nk turun tangga, tengok betul-betul. nnt terjatuh mcm i plak. hahaha! oh ya, besok deepa-raya doh. makan time!! haha. tapi yg mcm celakanya, all the form 3, form 4B and 4U kena buat kat canteen because of apa entah. babi sial siot je. baru nk melalak-lalak kat class tu. sekali party kita orang kat canteen, kacau betul.

itulah yg terjadi di sekolah hari ini. haha. mom called just now, she said that maybe she's not going to pick me up tomorrow. she needs to go to perak because of some work. lepas cakap dgn dia, terlanggar plak sofa ikea tu. aduhaii. x sakit plak sebenarnya. haha. wanna know something best?

mak tok and tok ayah is not going to be here this weekend. they're going to penang. HALLELUJAH!! gila siot x cucu? hahaha. asal pegy satu hari je. stay la sana lama-lama. lg bahagia orang kat sini. :P

that's all for now. dah penat dah type. dah la dgn baju sekolah lg. dengan x mandi plak tu. hahaha.

i'll post another blog a.s.a.p.

over and out.

body language and bad habits

2008-10-26T17:40:00.000+08:00

haven't blog in like a gajillion years. haha. sorry guys. sume dah marah suruh blog and now i'm blogging. (:

now, PMR is finally over. FINALLY!! haha. now i am free. i think it has been a week after PMR and that ola lady dah suruh aku belajar form 4. apa ke gila? sekolah form 3 pun x habis lg. nak belajar form 4. thanks Hamdi for telling mak tok that you're learning form 4 syllabus at your asrama. now, i have to learn the form 4 syllabus. aku sabar je doh dengan orang tua tu. pastu selalu complain kat aku bangun lambat la apa la. suka hati la weyh, exam dah hbs kot. aku punya la penat bgn pagi2 buta untuk seminggu sbb PMR. bagi la aku bangun lambat untuk 2 bulan. susah sangat ke? nak sangat kacau hidup aku. haish!

lg? nak blog pasal apa? otak dah kosong. oh ya, ayman R. who are you? titibe plak dapat my blog. cakap best plak tu. weird. merepek memanjang ada la.

ohh. hari tu, on thursday. me, lya and nisa went to chilis. to celebrate her 15th birthday. we took lots of pictures. pictures sume kat lya. dia kat jb ngan mak and bapak mertua and husband. bila mau balik haa? banyak rinduu oh. bila mau kasi gambar. semangat nkt tgk ni. dah la shopping x igt dunia kat singapore. oh ya, the waiter at chilis tu. kacau la. org nk suprise, terus x suprise. sheesh. HAPPY BESZDAY!! sumpah lawak siot. x tahan.

najwa, sorry i couldn't come to your open house. ada family problem sikit. you're at terengganu kan right now. have fun over there.

that's all for now. tengah sabar melayan syazwan ni. haha.

bye!

A How To For Addictions

2008-08-25T02:06:00.000+08:00

i know, i know. it has been approximately two months since i last blogged. haha. sorry guys. i have been very busy. i am writing right know because nisa just blogged, so i decided to blog too. a lot has happened to me these past two months.

well, where to start? haha. school has been fine. i can't wait to get to school today. i really really miss my friends. jaga korang. nanti sampai sekolah, hug sampai matai. hehe. can't wait to start my daily routine in class. but i dont have any sweater to sleep on. my esprit sweater is lost. i don't know where the hell it is. i think it's at dad's house. maybe. i'm not sure. my polka dot sweater is with my maid. aku berkurun letak kat belakang suruh basuh, tapi tak basuh basuh juga. haish. biar la. ayi's sweater is not with me. i asked him to hold it last thursday, then faiz wore it. sampai balik. then when i was in the train, i realized that i wasn't holding his sweater. you guys might be wondering what happened on thursday. so here it goes.

thursday, 21st of August 2008.

my phone was ringing. i was thinking, who would call me early in the morning. then i looked at the screen. AYI. a smile carved on my face. then i looked at the clock. shit it was already 10 o'clock. i was late for tuition. then i went outside because the line in my room sucks. it was raining. when i was on the phone, i recieved a message. it was from hafsah. she said that she didn't have the mood to go to tuition because it was raining. i wanted to go because farah wanted to see me on that day. then finally, she agreed to go. i then asked ayi wheather i can go take a shower. we then hung up. got ready and then went to picked up hafsah in front of her house. faizal dropped us at cm. so we walked to tuition. i only went to the first session. then i went to see farah. you must be wondering who farah might be. haha

farah is ayi's neighbour. i met her when i went out with ayi on saturday, 16th of August 2008. she is a cbn-er and she is in form 1. she is really pretty. trust me. when i say pretty, really really really pretty. i swear to god i haven't met her in school. haha. weird. since that day, we became very close. she is my adik. haha. oh ya, whenever i want to see farah, ayi is going to be there and whenever i want to see ayi, farah is going to be there. except if i see ayi after school. so, faham-faham je la.

farah asked me to meet her at klcc. went to klcc. met ayi and his friend, faiz. then farah wanted to go to pavi. she said that her friend is there and she wanted to meet her. dah nak jalan pegi pavi ni, farah said, 'nasha, kawan i kata dia kat sini. jumpa dia dulu then pegy pavi.' i was okay with that. but the best part was when we waited for her friend for half an hour. memang best la. tunggu kat escelator dome tu macam orang bodoh. then we decided to leave because her friend took so long to come. when we were walking outside, her friend called and said that she was going to be there. kite orang pun masuk la balik klcc tu. tukar venue plak. kat topshop. met her friend and we thought that she was going to walk with us. but nooooo. her friend punya friend wanted to see her pet bro. aahh. pegy mampos kau la. haha. then we walked to pavi. when we were walking, we walked by a house or whatever it is.the house or whatever it is has been destroyed. it's not completely destroyed. the walls are still attached and you can see the first floor and second floor. it was really a cool place to take some pictures. but then, there were a group of people taking photos. then we decided to take some pictures when we were walking back to klcc. cause i needed to go back to klcc since i was going to damai.

finally, we arrived at pavi. on the way in, we saw hafriz and hasni and hafriz punya kawan. semua buat muka sombong and then bla. haha. we went to the stairs to hang out. and then i looked at my right, i saw bie. i smiled at him but he didn't really seem to smile back. i kept looking at him because i was curious. haha. then ayi went upstairs followed by me and farah. i was looking down, and then kerol looked up. he waved. but i don't know at who. it was really weird. then, farah met her friend yang kat klcc tu. then we decided to go the place that we went on saturday. it was at one side of pavi. it has lots of chairs and space. me, ayi and faiz was getting bored so we decided to walk. farah said that she was going to catch up with us. we walked and then hafriz called asking where i was. he wanted to see me. he was at pizza hut eating with his friends. since i was going home, i stopped at pizza hut to see hafriz. we talked for a while and then we went back. it was really fun walking back to klcc because ayi was holding my left hand and farah was holding my right hand. gila best weyh. from pavi until putra klcc. haha. then i went home.

when i got home, i asked bie why didn't he smile back at me when we were at pavi. he said, ' bila masa pulak u ada kat situ. i x nmpk pun u.' i was like what? i was positive that it was bie that i saw on the stairs. then he said 'ohh, u were the girl that kept looking at me. sorry. bie rabun. x nmpk' i laughed my head off because we were so near yet he still didn't see me. kesian bie. betul-betul rabun. haha.

so, that's what happened on thursday. haha. oh ya, i am now taken. if you read what i just wrote up there, you would probably know who my boyfriend is by now. ;)

to danny, i am really sorry what has happened between us. i know it's kind of fast of me to couple with a new guy but he's really nice and at that moment, he was there for me. i really miss being yours but sometimes, i just can't stand with your attitude. you're 18. think like an 18 year old kid. a gave you a chance and you blew it. i hope you will tell your friends that we are still contacting each other. i know your friends have said a lot of bad things about me but i want them to know. i don't want you to keep a secret from them. let adam and amad know. please. i think we are better off as friends. it's much better. no more quarelling. i am happy where i am now and i hope you're happy too.

saturday, 16th of August 2008.

that weekend i was with mom. kakak had a slumber party in putrajaya. i was suppose to follow mom and ayah to send her and go to alamanda but i went out on that day. i met alfia nelissa or fya. fya is Dan's friend. i've known her for quite some time. she lives in ipoh and on that weekend she was in kl. mom gave me the green light to meet her. finally, for months of commenting, kita jumpa. i met her at jamek since she was at masjid india buying baju melayu (for her dad and brother) with her mom and auntie. she's really fair and skinny. she's really pretty too. haha. we went to bk because her mom and auntie wanted to eat. we sat down and chatted while eating. while we were talking about Dan, he called fya. i decided to answer his phone call. he was shocked that i was with her. then he said, that he's on his way. at first, we didn't believe him. hello. we're talking about Dan over here. mesti la tipu. then he called again and said that he's there. we looked at the entrance and there he was. gila bapak la. he came. haha. we were shocked. sape nak sangka dia datang. ingatkan main-main. we sat for a few minutes then i needed to go because ayi wanted to see me. then they sent me to the ticketing counter dekat putra.

i then went to klcc and walked to pavi to see ayi. when i arrived, he called using farah's phone and said that he was at klcc. memang nak kene pelempang la kan. i asked him to come back to pavi. i didn't want to walk to klcc. i was tired. from jamek to klcc to pavi. i waited at the bridge for him. and finally, he arrived. that was the first time i saw and met farah. farah didn't want to go to pavi because she had a fight with her boyfriend, so she didn't want to see him. she wanted to go back to klcc. then mom called saying that she's going to be there in 30 minutes. nak tak nak, stay je la situ. this was the day we found the place with many chairs and that was spacious. we sat there until mom called saying that she's there. went to see mom and she bought a bag for her lap top at charles and keith.

pictures on the 16th and 21st of August will be uploaded very soon. farah la. orang dah amik gambar cantik-cantik, dia xnk kasi. cis! i ambil krg camera besar hitam you yang best tu baru tau. :D i'm sorry for the grammar or the spelling mistakes. my english dah agak berkarat. so, bare with me. i really miss farah. i hope she's okay. oh ya, setelah lama nampak dia di sekolah, ku telah kenal dengan dia. haha. it's wawin. i know her. she's always with athirah, qila or lyna but we never tegur. then yesterday athirah added her in a convo dekat msn. baru la kenal. i asked her why didn't she tegur me before this. she said 'muka you garang. takut nak tegur.' i laughed in front of my computer like a mad person. ada tak dia kata muka i garang? win, you're really funny.

that's all for now. dah penat type.

currently listening to :

poems and stars

slow motion red lights

the mile after

the audition

every avenue

the rocket summer

the scene aesthatic

sing it loud

my favorite highway

nevershoutnever

laila's lounge

holiday parade

bye.

sweet memories.

2008-06-17T22:43:00.000+08:00

Thank you ~~Muhammad Syazwan bin Suhaimi~~ for entering my life and dissapearing from it with a blink of an eye. Thank you for making me kiss you when you knew that there was no me and you in your dictionary. Thank you for breaking my heart into a million pieces. Thank you for giving me hope that you and me could be together. Thank you for making me trust you. Thank you for playing with my pure and innocent heart. Thank you for making me cty. Thank you for making me feel like an idiot. Thank you for torturing me. Thank you for breaking your promise.

all again for you

2008-06-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

happy father's day to papa and ayah!

went to nikko hotel for dinner. we ate japanese. the food there was expensive and delicious. hee.

sayang, i miss the way you look at me. i miss the way you kiss me. i miss the fact that you couldn't let me go everytime we met. i miss holding your hands. i miss the gazillions of messages that i recieved from you. i miss the way u say "i love you". i miss your voice. i miss the little time that we spent. i miss my friends saying that me and you are cute together. i miss waking you up in the morning. hearing your voice every morning. i miss looking in your eyes. i miss your hug. i miss the messages that you sent after every game you played. "sayang, ni i ******* . i dah abis game . menang 5-1 . i love you sayang . i miss your touch. i miss your awkwardness. i miss receiving calls from you. i miss hearing you sing. i miss recieving messages at 10 in the morning saying that you miss me. i miss hearing you crap. i just miss you. where are you sayang? will you come back to me? i am tired of waiting for you. i can't wait forever. once u told me not to filrt with other guys. i still don't flirt with guys because of you. there's this amzing guy. he is so nice. he is very caring. should i just go on with my life or should i wait? u made a promise with me. " i will contact you, i promise." if you do really love her and u don't want me. just tell me. it is better if you tell me then not contacting with me at all. it hurts knowing that all the sweet things you did with me is gone. i need to hear it from you. i want you to tell me that you don't want me anymore. please. it would make things so much better. it's all coming true now when i said to you that i was afraid that you were not goin to love me. you were not goin to miss me. please dont't leave me. i love you.

just say the word.

2008-06-02T16:27:00.000+08:00

we went to the islamic museum just now.

then after that went to eat lunch at marche, the curve.

i'm still mad.

and that's it.

here are some pics.

islamic museum

2008-06-02T16:22:00.000+08:00

it's you

2008-06-01T20:30:00.000+08:00

it's his 4 month anniversary with her.

dissapointment

2008-06-01T13:13:00.000+08:00

i dah bagi tau u. lagi senang kalau u tinggalkan i je. cari lelaki lain yang lagi baik daripada i.

every inch of me is bruised.

2008-05-01T18:16:00.000+08:00

its been a while. a lot of things had happen. i cant write all of it. can i?

yesterday was fun. went out with najwa,bie and kerowl. havent gone out with najwa for a long time. sayarindusangatdengankamu. (: watched ironman. best owh that story!! the panggung dh la sejuk. najwa and me was freezing. ahah! thank you kerowl kerana menyumbangkan jaket anda kepada kami. kamulah lelaki yang paling gentleman. ahahah! then after the movie finished, i went home. mama punya psl la ni. ish! said bye to all. then chow.

end of story.

sorry for the language. entah ayat betol ke tidak. biarlah.

ahahah!

currently addicted to: bruised by jack's mannequin.

bye.

i've seen love die way to many times

2008-04-20T01:47:00.000+08:00

arrived at mak su's house around 8pm++. they were having a barbecue because of liyana, amirul and kakak's birthday. sampai and then makan2. then as usual. sing-a-long session. lagu biasa2 la. the beatles. bee gees. oldies. ahaha! lyn je la. ape nk buat. yellow submarine, twist and shout and many more! talked to yana. saya rindu sama kamu lyanna hanim musle. (:
then mase utk memotong cake pon tiba. bukan satu cake, bukan dua cake tetapi tiga cake! chocolate, chocolate and walnut and carrot cake. yum! owh ya, sean david mikhail / sean mikhail david [if i'm not mistaken that is his full name] is so cute. gamba nnt akan saya uploadkan. kemalasan utk nk transfer.
mkn2. ckp. transfer2 brg then kene balik. ish! baru nk have fun. everyone was like talking about my bj. saya tahu dibelakang baju saya ada tulis cinta kentut. knp? x bole ke?
hafiz kamu nie sungguh best. everytime jumpa mesti kata 'meera, u dh kurus kan?' ape la. tu je. last time jumpa pon same. tp kan hafiz saya rasa saya sudah gemuk. ahhaahah! bantai je la.

then balik.
end of story.

bsk, party.

currently listening to paramore.

chow.
(:

aku di belakangmu dan menjagamu

2008-04-19T16:25:00.000+08:00

it has been a while. sampai sume org pon dh mara. ahaha! sorry guys.

intervensi 2 just finished. diagnostics is coming up. in 2 weeks time if i'm not mistaken. i'm goin out of my mind over here trying to figure out chords for the stupid PKPSM song. strumming pattern pon x de sebenarnya. we need to submit the song by next week pulak tuh. mmg best! 2 songs in a week.

1st,

kami warga PKPSM

rela berkhidmat demi negara

melahirkan modal insan yag berjaya

bersatu padu sebulat suara

demi mencapai wawasan negara

kami warga PKPSM

memegang satu matlamat

melahirkan warga pendidikan

berteraskan kemajuan

kami sedia menjalankan tugas

dengan penuh taat dan tegas

amanah itu kami utamakan

begi melahirkan warga

PKPSM yang berdedikasi

2nd,

kami warga pendidikan

menjalankan tugas dengan amanah

bersedia berkhidmat demi mencapai

misi negara agar maju di mata dunia

kami warga pendidikan

bertanggungjawab membentuk modal insan

yang bakal mentadbir nrgara

bagi mencapai wawasan 2020

for bm we needed to a sajak or a pidato for oral. i was goin to the the pidato thing but i wrote a few lines of something and decided to the sajak thing. here is my sajak,

Cinta

Suaramu yang sungguh merdu

Bunyi petikan yang engkau mainkan

Lagu-lagu yang engkau dendangkan untukku

Mengukir senyuman di wajahku

Cinta yang aku rasa terhadapmu

Tidak akan hilang

Tidakkah engkau lihat

Persembahan yang telah aku buat untuk dirimu

Hanya untukmu, buat pertama kalinya

Perit hatiku, engkau melayanku sebegitu

Tetapi aku hanya bersabar dalam kerinduan

Dengan perangai dan karenahmu itu

Kerana aku tahu jauh di lubuk hatimu

Terdapat perasaan cinta yang tersimpan untukku

Selamanya

tommorow is kakak's birthday party. celebrating at tgi friday's, pavillion. duit minah tuh banyak x pe la. goin to mak su's house later to celebrate liyana's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SMARTY PANTS! she's clever. seriously. she's 13 but she's in form 2. haih. pandai. pandai.

im out of words.

currently addicted to: karena wanita (ingin dimengerti) by ada band.

chow ppl.

ps: im so not mat jiwang!!

apa cinta ku masih lagi.

2008-03-30T23:41:00.000+08:00

saturday.

sports day was ok la. arrived at the stadium late due to the stupid star. pukimak la kau! bertawaf satu star tuh sebenarnye. left home around 7.30am arrived there around 9.30am. ahaha!! budak yg cukup cemerlang. sat there at the stadium. watched the cheerleaders perform. then went to klcc. (:

went there with najwa. because najwa was meeting ijam there. me and kakak went to klcc because we wanted to buy mum's birthday present. terima kasih najwa kerana menumpangkan kami ke klcc. ahaha!! went to find mum's present. went to isetan. we found this baju yang lawa. kakak wanted to try it on. nk tgk size and all. but we saod NO! we were all starving! perut dah buat gig dah. siap org bermoshing-moshing lagi. ahahah!! went to chilis to eat. taufiq wasn't there. :( tp x pe la. mkn je la. mkn, mkn and mkn. then ijam pon sampai. man! he was hot! ahaha. with his button up shirt and converse shoes. tergoda! kami mkn2 pastuh jln2. bought mum the baju. then went to see hajar.

she was cekci yaw! with her cheerleading outfit and all. then kami beronda2. then terjumpa pn. ros. (ya allah ya tuhanku, bagilah pn.ros tak cakap apa2 pasal hari sabtu hari tuh. amin) then went home.

mum picked us up at kelana jaya. then went home to change and rest. after manghrib, went to eat dinner because it was mum's birthday. HAPPT BIRTHDAY! kamu masih muda lagi. 38 tuh. fuh-yoo! mum asked ud to dress up. so, kami pon berdress up lah. i thought we were goin to the curve to eat at itallianies or tgi fridays or something. rupe2nye we went to pj hilton. we ate at a bar/restaurant/club called uncle chilis. the food there wasnt great. menu die amboi. ape je. pasta, steak, pizza, salad and sandwiches. nk x nk kami pon mkn je la. then watched the band perform. skyhigh if im not mistaken. boleh thn la. went home, mandi then terus landing katil.

sunday.

went to catch a movie at one utama. because mum had the complimentary passes. ate brunch at nasi kayu kandar. then went to ou. we watched awake and the spiderwick chronicles. awake was awesome. best sial cerita tuh! i was running after we watched awake because it finished late. went to the toilet first, obviously. then masuk the panggung, rupe2nye x start lg. sabar je la. then after that went to find najwa's birthday present. owh ya, now it's 12.00am. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAJWA!! (: jln2. then jumpe la present die. went to bk to eat. then mum picked us up and sent us to mak tok's house. and now here i am typing. ahaha!!

currently listening to: ron pope

that's all.

chow!

so, take my hand

2008-03-24T22:04:00.000+08:00

went to school. obviously. ahahah! we had pjk. learned how to play bola tampar. it was painful! then blaja, blaja and blaja. after school, there was the cheer preview thing. me and hafsah decided to stay and watch since our tuition started at 3.20pm. aidan's performance was awesome! pauline, hurm. there was this one kid. she was so in lala land. she forgot her steps. she cant even remember her position. weyh, macam mane pauline nk mng mcm ni?? xavier, cun. adele, ok la.

me and hafsah, we were hoping tht there was no tuition. tgk2 ade jgak. haish! at first, we didnt want to go. then fikir2 balik. how bout we just go for geo only? ahaah!! went into class, semangat nk blaja niyh. thn Dan said that he wanted to see hafsah, he just woke up, so we assumed he was playing around. a few minutes later, he called saying that he was on his way to cm and we should meet him there. me and hafsah decided to skip tuition after all. went to secret recipe. ordered cake and drinks. chat, chat , chat then he arrived. chat, chat, chat again then he went to see abg man. it was already 5pm, so we decided to go home. nnt train mcm ketupat + tin sardin[bak kate najwa]. went to the ladies room first because hafsah needed to go to the toilet. pegilah kami ke toilet. i asked hafsah to go see Dan first. nk kate bye and all. then he decided to go back home with us. went outside, then, HUJAN!! heavily. nk x nk kene stay kat cm tuh. tggu hujan reda.

he asked us to lepak at his moms shop first. nk x nk lepak je la. dh name kate pon hujan. sat there for half an hour or so. they chatted. i didnt beacuse i was pissed off at him. then, mom called saying that i need to meet her a.s.a.p because she has thing that she needed to do. i told her that it was raining heavily and there were thunders and all. she then scolded me. i was like wtf? dh hujan nk bwat ape? sheesh. we left cm around 6.15pm walked to the train station, when we were walking, Dan passed his phone to me. i was like why? rupe2nye it was mom. and then i was thinking, asl mama call Dan? then i figured it out. divert calls. somebody gatal tangan, pegy divert kat phone Dan. no wonder la. mom was furious! she was scolding me. ckp why was i with Dan and all. bolleh tak mak sendiri tak percaya anak. until to the part where Dan needed to tell mom, then baru nk percaya. apa la!

then naik the train. mcm ketupat juga la. Dan stopped at kg. baru with hafsah because he wanted to go to hospital kuala lumpur. then i stopped at klcc. as usual. i arrived there around 6.40pm or so and then mom arrived an hour later. siap tido kat situ!! i had a headache. well, i still have the headache. haish! what a day!! tomorrow is PTI. im so gonna be dead plus theres bm. and we're suppose to do our oral test. pidato or sajak. x buat lg weyh!! cuak sial. i think i better go do my bm work.

currenty listening to : flop poppy

chow!

i've just seen a face

2008-03-23T01:46:00.000+08:00

wow! yesterday was hectic! went to nenek's house to do the candy wrappings. arrived there around 11am or so. ate breakfast. then we started to wrap the candy. 3 mentos. 1 jelly and 1 chocolate éclair. wrapped the candy for 45 minutes non stop then we needed to stop because we ran out of the transparent plastic thingy. so we needed to wait for mom to cut the transparent thingy. i slept while mom was cutting. i slept at 6 in the morning. ngantuk taw!! slept for two hours. (: bangun-bangun je all candy was gone. rupa-rupanya sudah siap dibungkus oleh kakak and kak hidayah. hehehehe!! terima kasih banyak-banyak.

then dad came banck with mom. then me, kakak and dad went out to find me a baju kurung. before we went hunting for the baju,we went to starbucks untuk mengenyangkan perut. mkn2. minum2 then off we went to find baju kurung. jln2 pastuh jumpe la baju kurung. haish! nk juga same with the theme.

went back home to change for the marhaban thing that was going on at nenek's house. punye la banyak org2 tua yg ada. =-=" served guests and took pictures because me and kakak, we are in charge of taking pictures and recording videos. haih. mati la bsk. kalo gamba sume tak jd, mesti kene ceramah ngan papa. ahaha!!

i think i should stop typing now. its going to be a long day. owh ya, abg man texted me saying that the bj dh siap. thank god!! i thought that the shirts would not be ready on time. i was so worried. thanks abg man. (:

currently listening to: here comes the sun and i've just seen a face.

chow ppl.

joys mind

2008-03-22T03:43:00.000+08:00

went out with kakak and nurul. suppose to go out with hafsah or Dan. hafsah, her mother wouldnt let her go out. auntie, im a good girl. :P Dan was busy with god knows what. =_="
tok ayah dropped us at damai. met with nurul then went to klcc. bought kakak's book at kinokuniya. then went to pavillion to catch a movie. i thought we were walking but since kakak is so rich, we took a cab. she payed, OBVIOUSLY.
went to GSC to see the movie listing. all the movie was at 5. so, we decided to go to klcc to catch the movie. kakak and nurul wanted to shopping. so, i went off to search for credit. Dan, mane ade KFC kat pavillion!! ade ke? i dont know. so i went to grab a drink at the food court then decided to go to klcc to buy the credit. too lazy to wait for nurul and kakak, so i walked all alone to klcc.
arrived at klcc, went to buy credit then went upstairs to buy the tickets.
an hour later, kakak and nurul arrived. HAISH! watched 10,000 bc. the cinema was freaking cold!! me and nurul were shivering. steven strait was hot. even with the dread locks.
after that, went to eat at chilis. i went first because kakak and nurul went to the toilet because kakak wanted to change her clothes because of faris. minah tuh gabrah sebab the first time she saw and talked to faris, she was wearing the same shirt. then, nurul arrived without kakak. nurul said that she went to find a pin for her shirt. while we were waiting for kakak, there was this one guy. a waiter. waiting for us to order. he was CUTE! (:
his name was taufiq. me and nurul decided to order the nachos first. while waiting for kakak and the food, we chatted. talked bout faris. faris not faeez. ahahaahah!! crap. crap. crap. then kakak arrived. she crapped about faris and all. we were like maniacs! kutuking people. laughing or asses off! sampai taufiq tuh pon ingat we were crazy. tok ayah picked us up. bye bye nurul. then balik.
sampai rumah, landing katil terus! hehehehe. then dad called. he said that hes gonna come to kl to pick us up. we needed to help with uncle boy's wedding. haish! so now here i am. at dad's house.
i think i should go because now it is 10 minutes to 5 and i need to wake up in 4 hours. ahahah!!

currently listening to: decma & and the couldhavebeen and funky doryz.

chow!!

chentaku.

2008-03-18T23:39:00.000+08:00

joyah asked me to blog. so, yeah.

at school today, ustazah asked all the ajk's to see her. i was like. alamak. for what? then she said how tomorrow is gonna be and all. im not going to school tomorrow. ajk agama yg bertauliah tak? ahahahah!! kemalasan. =P

after school, tution.

went to eat first at maju with zk. then, it was going to rain. when i was paying, hujan. haish!! went outside then hujan lagi lebat! memang best. we decided to took the train instead of our daily routine, walking. obviously. dah hujan lagi nak jalan pegy tution. tuition.... blaja, blaja, blaja.

after tution, went to see abang man.

payed the shirt. hutangku sudah langsai. finally! ahah. when we arrived at his shop, he wasnt there. called him. he said he was eating and said that he'll text me back. then me and hafsah decided to go to mcd for a while because she was hugry. then abg man texted, he said tht he was with abg. i was like, who? abg? Dan? and then he asked us to come to his shop. kami pun pergilah. then he said that he's with abg. Dan? he said megat. i was like, megat daniel azreen ataullah? and then he said yes. Dan's aunty told me yesterday that he was in the hospital, banyak la kau kat hospital!! then we discussed about the olahraga shirt and all. i texted Dan asking him was he at cm? and then he called. saying that he was coming down. i was like, okay. ahaha!! he looked healthy. sihat walafiat. kat hospital ye? hospital la sgt!! eeeee. geram btol! owh ya, i looked like shit. because of the rain. he didnt look at me. at all. weird. biarlah. ahah!! then went home late. best sangat cakap ngan abg man. nasib baik tak kene marah dengan tok ayah. amin.

thats all.

tomorrow i need to teman mak tok shopping.

haish!!

*currently listening to atilia and boneca.

chow.

doa untuk ibu.

2008-03-17T20:01:00.000+08:00

went to school after the long break. chit chat with besties. same old routine.

got our maths and english paper. i got 74 for maths. i was like WAT? is this my paper? i got a B for maths? weird but true. i got 67 for english. so fucking stupid!! how can my maths be higher than my english marks? 67? ape barang weyh. i know it's still a B but it's the low class B. shitness!! then teacher anounced that next tuesday is PTI. i was like, WTF? PTI? u must be joking? so sad to say it but its true. i am so gonna DIE next tuesday. hope pn. azura doesnt say anything bad in front of my mum/dad. in sivik class today, we needed to do a syair/puisi/pantun about our mother. semua merepek ape bende tah.

ibu

kaulah penyuluh hidupku

....

(macam lagu sekolah je)

ahaha!!

currently addicted to that HEY! song.

dont know why.

haish.

asal buka computer je kene dengar lagu tuh.

*kadang-kadang ku rasakan dunia serba indah.....

i think thats all.

over and out!

chow.

emotions.

2008-03-14T02:19:00.000+08:00

i dont know why.

mixed emotions.

mad, angry,pissed off, happy and a whole lot more.

owh ya,

i miss talking to u.

HEY!

2008-03-13T03:05:00.000+08:00

hey! janganlah kau berduka,

marilah kau bersama, ikut rentak gayanya

hey! usah sedih dan pilu,

marilah bersama ku, goyangkanlah badanmu

kadang-kadang ku rasakan dunia sebak indah,

kadang-kadang ku rasakan dunia tiada akhirnya,

kadang-kadang ku rasakan dunia......

havent blog in a while. im blogging rite now beacuse lya asked me to. haish!

its 3.10am.

didnt do anything yesterday. stayed at home. couldnt go out.

i cant even give the design to abang man.

gonna meet up with him today. thanks abang man for everything. really appreciate what you are doing for me and najwa right now.

im so sorry because im like taking your time off just to give you the design. its suppose to be your day off.

sorry abang man.

still chatting with lya. since 12 o clock i think.

we have been crapping and laughing for the past three hours.

hey! jangan lah kau berduka, walaupun engkau tua, marilah bergembira.

that video is so funny. with his specs and all.

AHAHAHAHAH!!

i think that is gonna be it for now.

ill blog later.

chow dudes and dudettes.

ku hanya ingin menari dengan mu.

2008-03-03T16:42:00.000+08:00

havent been bloggong for a while.

better blog before my frens shout at me.

ahhaahahah!!

had the intervensi test just now.

it was ok.

english kacang weyh.!

ways towards becoming an excellent teenager.

siap kasi points.

lagi senang. for me la. i dont know bout u guys.

theres no paper tomorrow. yey!

and then sumthin, sumthin and sumthin on wednesday.

ahaha!!

i cant remember the jadual.

then on friday cuti.

because of the election i think.

hehe!

maybe im not goin to skewl tomoro.

kemalasan!

and najwa,nisa,lya,eera,joyah,hafsah is not goin.

riza im not sure.

i think shes goin to kampung pandan.

nk meyibok je kat tempat tuh.

ahahah!!

like wat i did last year.

told fatini, ijan and manjira bout my prob.

theyre very good listeners.

fatini gave me advice.

but i think im not gonna use it.

just let it be je la weyh.

if he really loves me.

ok la.

kalo x.

entah la.

kind of emotionless right now.

dont exactly know why.

the times rocks la weyh.

so does hijau and cik payung.

local band rocks!!

i wanna hear radio archive and my family band punye songs la.

Dan tuh.

pasang la band2 u nye lagu mase u ckp ngan i.

or the song with komplot tuh.

lagu tuh best.

=))

songs that i recommend:

hijau: kehadiranmu

hijau: ilustrasi

cik payung: takkan pernah

the times: konfrantasi primadona

the times: lagu bintang

the times: curang rock 'n' roll

the times: romantis

the times: kasanova

the times: panik kuala lumpur

download la lagu2 ini.

lagu2 ini mmg yg tramtlah best.

ahahah!!

i think thats all.

chow!

ooohhh la la.

2008-02-19T21:05:00.000+08:00

i wanna try something new.

i'm gonna blog in malay today.

saya sudah kene marah dengan joyah kerana tidak mengemas kinikan saya punya blog. pada hari jumaatyang akan datang ini, sekolah saya akan mengadakan sebuah jamuan sempena dengan tahun baru cina. saya seperti biasa akan membawa benda-benda yang berkenaan dengan muzik sahaja. ahahhaha!!

i can't do it.

speaking all in malay.

met haphiz just now. got my money back. miahahah!! thx haphiz. =) then stopped at kg. baru for a while. temankan hafsah 'berdating' with faizal.

ahahah!!

i think that's it.

i don't know what to crap anymore.

ahahah!!

chow!

cinta itu kabut.

2008-02-09T22:12:00.000+08:00

ahaha!!

im like so fucking bored right now. exam is coming up. baru buka satu buku je. mmg best. =)

jd la mcm saya. contoh yg cukup baik. i wanna go out. mum said that i can go out after exam. yey!! najwa, photoshoot jom!! pastuh kite meronggeng skali eyh gay partner ku. hahahaha!! dah start la niyh. merepek-repek. owh. owh. i need to speak more english la. mcm dh berkarat je my english.

najwa!! tlg!! ahah!!

i think thats it.

owh ya.

cute is what we aim for and ivoryline best.

cube la dgr.

out!

chow.

komplot.

2008-02-03T12:21:00.000+08:00

ahahha.
havent been blogging for a while.
baik blog sebelum kene marah ngan joyah and eera.
=)
currently addicted to komplot.
thx to Dan.
ahahah.
lagu best-best weyh.
psychedelic funk.
lately, ive been enthusiastic with local bands.
siap buat elocution lagi pasal local bands.
dengan poster plak tuh.
cewah.
cukop bersemangat.
x dpt msk pon elocution tuh. cis!
ahahaha!!
if u want to see the poster's please go to my myspace page.
www.myspace.com/starzmyra

this weekend has been very weird.
guys=headaches.
ahahahahha!!

shawal!
when are u goin to on9 man?
i want to hear u sing for me.
=)

owh ya, najwa.
kite gay partners kan?
ahahahah!!
ape la chips tuh.
suke hati la org nk celebrate velentines day ngan bestie.
u susah ke?
ahahah!!

i think thats all.

disko tanpa risiko.

tidak perlu kau nyatakan kepadaku
tentang kekasih hatimu
kerna ku tak ingin tahu..

semuanya tidak penting bagi ku
hanya ingin menari dengan mu
jangan lah kau risaukan tentang hidup ku ,tentang hidupku

kerna aku tahu, ku bukan lah oh pilihan mu
jangan lah engkau ragu..
kerna ku tak mahu tahu masa silammu..

aku bukan makhluk yang perlu kau takutkan..
engkau bukan makhluk yang perlu ku takutkan

ku kaku dengan waktu yang kau mahu ku berikan kepadamu...

chow!
=)

hanan and eera.=)

2007-12-23T23:48:00.000+08:00

Name : Nasha Amirah Bt Azali
Spell your name without vowels : Nsh Mrh Bt Zl
Natural hair color : Dark brown

Do you ever lie about your age?
yes.

Initials?
nasha. meera, amirah

Eye color?
Dark Brown

What’s your height? Are you comfortable with your height?
170, 5'7 and yes i'm comfortable with my height.=)

Mood?
bored.

How many pairs of jeans do you own?
idk.

Can you dance?
dance? idk. =)

Are you musically talented?
i guess so.

Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
nope.

Did you have braces?
yup.

Who did you hug today?
no one.

On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping?
5. i don't really like shopping.

Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?
yup.

Do you own any big sunglasses?
yup.

How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
about 10 minutes or so.

What are you thinking about?
him.=S

When was the last time you felt stupid?
idk.

Who did you last yell at?
haziq.

Do you swear/curse?
who doesn't? ahaha!

Do you ever spit?
not really.

Do you ever make your own food?
sometimes.

You do your own chores?
sometimes.

Flowers or chocs?
chocs.=)

Lust or love?
love.=)

M&Ms or Skittles?
both

Staying up late or waking up early?
Staying up late (:

Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?
both? ahaha!!

Nervous habits?
i'll bite my lips. ahaha!

Can you roll your tongue?
idts.=P

Can you raise one eyebrow?
yup2.

Can u cross your eyes?
i think so. ahah!

Do you make your bed daily?
nope. i'll ask my sis to do it.

Did you have a new year's resolution this year?
nope.

Who kissed you at midnight?
nobody.

Are you mixed? If so, what is it?
indian and minang. kowt.

Do you like the rain?
sometimes.

Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?
i can't remember.

What year did/will you graduate from high school?
2010.

Can you honestly say you love me no matter what?
i guess so.

Been on a diet?
yeah.

Do you like hot chocolate?
yup!

What's your favorite sport?
idk.=S

What did you have for dinner last night?
steamed prawns and crabs, tempura fish cooked in thai sauce and butter prawns. delish!=)

Do you have plants in your room?
nope.

Whats your favorite Starbucks drink?
mocha frappe.=)

How many things in your past do you regret?
loads.

Have you ever felt like killing somebody?
hell yeah. ahahah.=)

Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
...

Did you forgive them?
...

Have you ever skipped school?
with permission. yes.

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yeap.

Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
yup.

Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out you were right?
yes.

DO YOU:

Believe in God?
yes.

Had a dream come true?
nope.

Read the newspaper?
not really.

Get enough sleep everyday?
nope.

Have a best friend?
yeap.

Wish on stars?
yup.

True of False :

I am a cuddler - TRUE
I am a morning person - FALSE
I am a perfectionist - FALSE
I am an only child - FALSE
I am Catholic - FALSE
I am currently in my pajamas - TRUE
I am currently single - TRUE
I am currently suffering from a broken heart - FALSE
I am okay at styling other people’s hair - TRUE
I am left handed - FALSE
I am very shy around the opposite gender AT FIRST - TRUE
I bite my nails - TRUE
I can be paranoid at times - TRUE
When I get mad I curse frequently - TRUE
I like someone - TRUE?
I enjoy country music - TRUE
I enjoy jazz music - FALSE
I enjoy smoothies - TRUE
I enjoy talking on the phone - TRUE
I have a pet - FALSE
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal - FALSE
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” person - FALSE
I have been told that I am smart - TRUE
I get higher then C’s in school - FALSE
I have broken a bone - FALSE
I have Caller I.D. on my phone - TRUE
I have bathed/showered with someone - FALSE
I have changed a diaper - TRUE
I have changed a lot over the past year - TRUE
I have done something illegal - TRUE
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair - FALSE.
I have had surgery - FALSE
I have killed another person - FALSE
I have had my hair cut within the last week - FALSE
I have had the cops called on me - FALSE

IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U

Gotten sick?
can't remember

Been hugged?
can't remember

Felt stupid?
can't remember

Talked to an ex?
i don't have one. ;D

Missed someone?
yes

Failed a test?
nope

Danced?
nope

Gotten your hair cut?
nope

Lied?
can't remember

H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S

Said "I Love you"?
yes (:

Given money to a homeless person?
yup

Waited all night for a phone call?
yup

Have u sat and just gazed at the stars?:
nope

Seen someone die?
no

Been on an airplane?
yes

Missed someone so much it hurt?
no

Ever have a near death experience?
no

Been in a car-related incident?
yes

Sung in the shower?
ahahha!! yes.

Laughed so hard you cried?
yup

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE:

What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
shoes

Who was your Valentine?
my besties

Do you prefer "sensitive boys" or "tough guys"?
both.

Have you ever been in a serious relationship?
nope.

Do you ever wonder what your ex is up to?
nvr had an ex before.

Do you like anyone?
yes.

Do they know it?
yes.

What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
A Walk To Remember and The Prince and Me

Had a Long Distance Relationship?
no

Do you believe the statement, "once a cheater always a cheater"?
not really

Do you believe in the saying "once a player, always a player"?
nope

Are you a player?
hell no!

Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
i nvr had abf before.=)

Do you believe in love at first sight?
i guess so

At what age did you start noticing the opposite gender?
can't actually remember.
ahahah!

Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't have him?
yeah

Do you know someone who likes you?
nope.

Have you ever fallen for your opposite sex best friend?
uumm..

Are you afraid of commitment?
i don't think so

Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships in your life?
no

Have you ever had your heart broken?
um. yes?ahaah!

Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
nope

Met someone special?
uumm.

Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
yes=]

What would you do if you received a long love letter?
cherish it.

Group dates or single dates?
yeah. i don't mind.

Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?
yes.

On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
10, ahahaha!

In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy?
no.

Would you date a guy shorter than you?
i don't think so.

Do you like to hold hands?
nvr done that before.

What is the youngest you would date?
a year younger than me.

What is the oldest you would date?
idk.

Do you like making eye contact?
yes

Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?
no

Do you fall in love easily?
yes actually

This is based on your best friends from school…

Do you have a best friend?
yup

Do you think you have the bestest friend ever?Y
yes. because they are awesome!

Who was the last person you hugged?
hafsah

Who’s the loudest?
Nur Anisah Bt Wisman

Who’s the quietest?
Nur Shaheera Bt Abdul Razak

Who makes you smile?
the people i <3

Who have you known the longest?
Chong Joey.

Who is the funniest?
everyone makes me laugh.

Who is the sweetest?
idk.

Who is the most responsible?
Chong Joey

Who can you talk to about anything and everything?
Nur Shaheera, Chong Joey and Izzatul Najwa

Who is always there for you?
Chong Joey and Izzatul Najwa

Who’s the tallest?
Izzatul Najwa of course. pfft.

Now, tag 5 of them angels or boys.

Rye,Sze Kay,Alex/Kentz,najwa and ???

=))

the day i finally arrived.

2007-12-23T11:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday was very a lil bit crazy. ahahahahaahah. everyone turned red because we decided to take a swim before we checked out. at first we went to the beach. swim. swim. swim. then i couldn't stand the salt water, so me and atikah went to the swimming pool. ahaha. there was this one dude. kind of in his 40's and fat. very fat. atikah asked me to look at him. and i was like why? the i turned around and he was on a chair dancing while listening to his ipod. i LAUGHED like hell!! every one was like looking. but who cares! it was so damn funny. ahahah!! hurm then went back to my room. then i realized that i was dark!!!!! i was like what the fuck?? haish! then we checked out and bla bla bla. too lazy to type. ahaha!!! the fucking flight was delayed! stupid MAS. arrived around 6.30pm. took all the luggage and went back home ate pizza. then we had a sing a long session. all the adults went crazy. singing oldies. yellow submarine, yesterday and loads more.
ahahahah!!

klwmbc.:S

2007-12-08T17:04:00.000+08:00

i so wanna go to klwmbc!!!!!!! but i can't. stupid Sabah trip. what is so interesting abou Sabah anyway? there 's only like orang utan's over there. and that's all. KLWMBC! KLWMBC! urgh!!
currently bored to death. yesterday was very interesting. went to pick up hafsah at her house because it was raining. we can't walk from pasar seni to kasturi can we? we'll be soaking wet. went to kasturi and register. now, i'm officially a kasturi student. ahahahaha. i'll be busy every wednesday and thursday. after that went to klcc for the reunion. we met zati, sya sya, farah diana, miera, yasmin, hajar,faridah, khalisah and syaza. then we hanged at starbucks. chat, chat, chat then went to see enchanted. the movie was awesome. you guys should see it. before the movie we bumped into rye and zkay. after the movie, we decided to go eat at kfc because everyone was like starving. i needed to go at 5 because i was goin to shah alam. and from klcc to shah alam is a very long ride. it took me and my sister about an hour and a half to reach to shah alam. stupid ktm. ahahahah.yesterday was a long and quite interesting day.

that's all for now.
bye!
=)

some old pics

2007-12-07T22:40:00.000+08:00

at pavillion and at sunway pyramid.=)

2007-12-05T15:11:00.000+08:00

2007-12-05T15:10:00.000+08:00

2007-12-05T15:08:00.000+08:00

2007-12-05T15:06:00.000+08:00

2007-12-05T15:02:00.000+08:00

miserable at best

2007-12-05T04:10:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry.
i won't hurt you ever again.
i promise.
=)
seriously i don't know what to do anymore IF we get into a fight again.
i don't wanna cry anymore.
and yes i admit it was VERY stupid of me to try to break our friendship.
i'm sorry.
i thought i was gonna lose u.
it was hard to win your heart.
when i say hard. i mean really hard.
after almost hours of pleading and begging.
we're friends again.
and finally i know what you feel towards me.
=)
i never thought u would feel like that towards me.
because you said to me that it's very hard to win your heart.
and finally, i did.

so, please.
i don't want us to argue aymore.
i don't wanna cry anymore.

i love you.
<3

argh!

2007-11-23T14:34:00.000+08:00

things that sux:
1) i think next year im not gonna get my allowance for a month [at least]
2) i want to go out but i think i cant
3) i dont have any fuckin money!!
4) im bored to death!!

WHY DOES THINGS HAVE TO BE SO STUPID?

lalallalalalallalala.

2007-11-22T21:01:00.000+08:00

I got tagged by joyah.=)

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR:
1) new vans
2) an itouch
3) money!!
4) a new guitar
5) she won't move

THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU IS: joyah yg gila.=P

YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER:
1) noisy
2) an awesome best friend
3) a great listener
4) she speaks malay. =P
5) loud!!!

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU:
- hhuurrrmm. when me and my friends were fighting, she was the one who wanted to sort things out.

THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE/SHE SAID TO YOU:
- idk.

IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL:
- lovers? shes not single anymore. =P

IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR ENEMY, THE REASON WILL BE:
- never thought of it before

PASS THE QUIZ TO 10 PEOPLE THAT YOU WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU:
- joyah
- eera
- lya
- nisa
- riza
- hajar
- hafriz
- zkay
- dan
- ijam

1. WHO IS NO. 7 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?
- riza

2. WHO IS NO. 9 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?
- diy

3. IF NO.9 AND NO.1 ARE TOGETHER, WILL IT BE A GOOD THING?
- i dont think so. :S

4. WHAT ABOUT NO. 1 AND NO. 5?
- they are both taken. =P

5. WHAT IS NO. 3 STUDYING?
- what?idk. :S]

6. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU CHATTED WITH NO. 6?
- um. the last day of school.

7. DOES NO. 4 WORK?
- nope.]]

8. DOES NO. 8 HAS ANY COUSIN IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL?
- i dont think so.

9. WILL YOU WOO NO. 8?
- woo?

10. HOW ABOUT NO. 5?
- ??

11. DOES NO. 2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?
- a sister.

12. HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW ABOUT NO.3 AND NO.4?
- lya and nisa : last year

13: WHERE DOES NO.1 LIVE AT?
- pandan something. sorry joyah.

14. HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW NO.2?
- classmates.

15. IS NO.5 THE SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD?
- idk. :S

addicted.

2007-11-21T16:53:00.000+08:00

we're ok.

2007-11-20T20:35:00.000+08:00

ahahahahaha.
thank god.
=)
how one word can change everything.
haish!

currently addicted to these songs:

* natasha bedingfield - soulmate
* the beatles - i need you
* the beatles - hey jude
* the beatles - do you want to know a secret?
* the click five - all i need is you

=)

SHIT!!

2007-11-20T20:32:00.000+08:00

owh man.
BUSTED.
what am i gonna do??
seriously.
someone help me!!!
AAAHHHHH!!

now this is for joyah.ahahahahaha.

2007-11-19T15:29:00.000+08:00

tralalalala.
school holidays just started.
it has only been 3 days since i met my friends.
dah RINDU!!
another a month and a half to go.
i think.
ahahahhahahah.
I HAVE NO MONEY AT ALL.
i dont know how the hell im gonna go out with my friends.
haish!
feeling really guilty.
=(
im so sorry!!
i need to wait till tomorrow to make sure were okay or not.
another__ hours.
haish!
i think thats all.
ill write more l8er.
bye.
=)

great song that u uys should hear.

2007-11-10T19:56:00.000+08:00

Realize - Colbie Caillat

V1: Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

C: If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

V2: Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
no its never gonna be that simple
no I can't spell it out for you.

C: If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

V3: It's not always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

C: If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized

OoOoOOo

missed out on each other now
missed out on each other now

Midnight Bottle - Colbie Caillat

Midnight bottle take me come with me my memories and everything come back to me
Midnight bottle make it real what feels like make believe so I can see a little more clearly
Like every single move you make kissing me so carefully on the corners of my dreaming eyes

I’ve got a midnight bottle gonna drink it down
A one way ticket takes me to the times we had before
When everything felt so right
If only for tonight I’ve got a midnight bottle gonna ease my pain
From all these feelings driving me insane
When I’m with you and everything’s all right if only for tonight
Got a midnight bottle drifting off into the candlelight where I can find you in your time
A midnight bottle I forgot how good it felt to be in a dream just like you had me
Cuz lately I’ve been stumbling feels like I’m recovering
But I think it’s only for tonight

I’ve got a midnight bottle gonna drink it down
A one way ticket takes me to the times we had before
When everything felt so right
If only for tonight I’ve got a midnight bottle gonna ease my pain
From all these feelings driving me insane
When I’m with you and everything’s all right if only for tonight
If only for tonight, if only for tonight, if only for tonight

I’ve got a midnight bottle gonna drink it down
A one way ticket takes me to the times we had before
When everything felt so right
If only for tonight I’ve got a midnight bottle gonna ease my pain
From all these feelings driving me insane
When I’m with you and everything’s all right if only for tonight
If only for tonight, if only for tonight, if only for tonight

No One - Alicia Keys

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cuz
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cuz
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So til the end of time I'm telling you there is no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

Funeral For A Friend - The Great Wide Open

Spitting from the bridges, like a bird perched on a branch,
I'm wilting on a tree that will never let me breathe.

Soul soldier with your gun held high, where does the crow fly,
soul soldier with your gun held high, will you follow it home.

For the road that we walk has more miles left to talk,
stories on and on we go, into the great wide open.

No it never came back to break me, the way it broke it down,
spitting from the bridges, while the trees give a sigh to the ground.

Soul soldier with your flag held high, where does the crow fly,
soul soldier with your flag held high, will you follow it home.

For the road that we walk has more miles left to talk,
stories on and on we go, into the great wide open.
For the road that we walk has more miles left to talk,
stories on and on we go, into the great wide open, into the great wide open.

The rush of the flood, sends the blood, to my head,
the rush of the flood, sends the blood, to my head,

Soul soldier with your gun held high, where does the crow fly
soul soldier with your gun held high, will you follow it home.

The rush of the flood, sends the blood, to my head,
the rush of the flood, sends the blood, to my head.

Climb out, climb out (woah), climb out, climb out (woah),
Climb out, climb out (woah), over me.
Climb out, climb out (woah), climb out, climb out (woah),
Climb out, climb out (woah), over me.

Into the great wide open.

eera this is for u.

2007-11-10T18:43:00.000+08:00

i havent blog in god noes how many months.
ahahahahahah.
im blogging here today becoz eera asked me too.
ahahahaha.
once again eera, are u satisfied?
=P
lalalalalal.
so what to write?
hhhhhuuuurrrmm.
well, school days is almost over.
sob. sob.
ahahahahhhaah.
um currently bored to death.
ive been learning how to scale.
which is so bloody hard!!
argh.
my fingers, it hurts like hell!
ahahhahhah.

heres a video that i think u guys would like.

..............

=)
nasha

LYA!

2007-09-02T12:42:00.001+08:00

01.) How many times a day would you kiss me?
im a girl.shes a girl.do the math.

02.) How many times a day would you just want to hold me?
hhhmmm.=P

03.) Would you take me places?
yes.

04.) Would you love me?
i already do.

05.) If we went out on a date would you have me pay for it?
like i said do the math.

06.) Would you take me anywhere special?
idk.=P

07.) If I was sick… what would you do?
ask u if youre alright.=))

09.) If one of my friends tried to get with you what would you do?
idk.

10.) Would you tell me?
???????

11.) Would you listen to all my problems and help me solve them?
um thats practically my job.=))

12.) Would you introduce me to your mom/dad?
i think my dad already noes u.

13.) Would you care about what I wore when we go out?
no.

14.) Would you go to the club with me?
no.i dont go clubbing.im a good girl.ahahahaha

15.) If your friend tried to get with me what would you do?
i will kill my friend cause ur taken.=))

16.) If someone tried to fight with me in front of you what would you do?
kick that someones ass.

17.) If a girl/guy tried to talk or dance with you at the club what would you do?
just dance with him/her.=))

18.) Would you give me your myspace password?
um.let me think
.............
NO!

19.) If I gave you mine would you read all my mail?
not really.

20.) If I said I loved you would you say it back?
yup.

21.) How good do I look from 1-10?
15.=)

22.) How do you feel about me?
um....

23.) Whats my best physical feature?
idk.ur abs i think.jealous seyh!

24.) Would we ever do freaky things in crazy places with me?
depends on how freaky it is.

25.) Have you ever wanted to do something with me? If so then what?
nope.i think i have done everything with u.

26.) If u had an empty house would u call me to come over?
yes.=))

LYA!

2007-09-02T12:42:00.000+08:00

01.) How many times a day would you kiss me?
im a girl.she a girl.do the math.

02.) How many times a day would you just want to hold me?
hhhmmm.=P

03.) Would you take me places?
yes.

04.) Would you love me?
i already do.

05.) If we went out on a date would you have me pay for it?
like i said do the math.

06.) Would you take me anywhere special?
idk.=P

07.) If I was sick… what would you do?
ask u if youre alright.=))

09.) If one of my friends tried to get with you what would you do?
idk.

10.) Would you tell me?
???????

11.) Would you listen to all my problems and help me solve them?
um thats practically my job.=))

12.) Would you introduce me to your mom/dad?
i think my dad already noes u.

13.) Would you care about what I wore when we go out?
no.

14.) Would you go to the club with me?
no.i dont go clubbing.im a good girl.ahahahaha

15.) If your friend tried to get with me what would you do?
i will kill my friend cause ur taken.=))

16.) If someone tried to fight with me in front of you what would you do?
kick that someones ass.

17.) If a girl/guy tried to talk or dance with you at the club what would you do?
just dance with him/her.=))

18.) Would you give me your myspace password?
um.let me think
.............
NO!

19.) If I gave you mine would you read all my mail?
not really.

20.) If I said I loved you would you say it back?
yup.

21.) How good do I look from 1-10?
15.=)

22.) How do you feel about me?
um....

23.) Whats my best physical feature?
idk.ur abs i think.jealous seyh!

24.) Would we ever do freaky things in crazy places with me?
depends on how freaky it is.

25.) Have you ever wanted to do something with me? If so then what?
nope.i think i have done everything with u.

26.) If u had an empty house would u call me to come over?
yes.=))

MERDEKA!

2007-08-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

merdeka merdeka.
another hour till merdeka.
im at traders hotel.
im so fuckin cold man!!
and agak boring.
owh.
i went out just know.
with matcha, karipap and tiara.
had fun.
tapi saket kaki.
hehehehehe.
before that gy skola ade the merdeka thing.
najwa pakai baju warne merah ya'll.
x menahan.
sungguh menawan.
hahahahhahahahaha.
and then i termasok the galah panjang thing.
can you imagine i was running with my kain.
best x?
hahaha.
=))
it was all steph's fault.
die x nak maen.
and then end up i plak yg kene masok.
x pe x pe.
we still won.
2nd place.
wwwoooohhhooo!!
2a rox!
=)

eera are u satisfied?

2007-08-26T04:01:00.000+08:00

im blogging. finally. i haven't blog in like what? a gajellion years? hahaha. um school holidays sux man! didn't go out with my friends. at all. that's like bullshit man! i haven't even start my kgt. which i think there's loads to do. shit man! um. what else to say?oh ya here is some few songs that i'm addicted to.

paramore- misery business
akon- sorry,blame it on me
nelly furtado- do it
the jonas brothers- hold on
boys like girls- the great escape
james morrison- this boy
the constatines- soon enough
dashboard confessional- don't wait
la-rocca- non believer

well i think that's all.
you guys need to check the songs that i wrote up there.
the songs rock!!

xoxo,
nasha/meera

friend test

2007-07-15T02:33:00.001+08:00

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a hectic day!!

2007-07-14T01:55:00.000+08:00

besok nak kluar..
yey!
yey!
tgk harry porter..

we went to mid valley to buy tickets.
we went there by train.
putra the ktm.
at first it went smoothly.
then..
when we were goin back,
the stupid ktm was late.
when we arrived at masjid jamek it was like 2.30.
we were running up the hill like hell.
but we arrived safely.

=)
=)

look after you

2007-07-07T03:36:00.001+08:00

f I don't say this now I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate

Oh, oh,
Be my baby
Ohhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my Baby
I'll look after you

If ever there was a doubt
My love she leans into me
This most assuredly counts
She says most assuredly

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhhh
Oh, oh
be my baby
I'll look after you

It's always have and never hold
You've begun to feel like home
What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you

Addicted dowh ngan lagu niyh..
Joyah la nye pasal.

screw u!

2007-07-07T02:30:00.000+08:00

why do u want to be mad at me?
for that stupid reason?
come on man!
idc care bout u guyz.
couple je la ngan die for all i care.
idgaf man!
i just dont!

bangang tol la!

2007-06-30T15:21:00.000+08:00

i nak kluar!
i nak tgk transformers!
i nak duit!
i nak a new purse!!
wwwwaaaaaa!!!

:(

anonymous

2007-06-17T13:05:00.000+08:00

For a minute it was looking like
I'd end up one of those guys
Spending my whole life
Looking for a special lady to save me
Maybe I'll never be satisfied
Had a couple bad lucks and a couple dimes
Now that I'm looking for you
Why are you so hard to find?

I thought I took one step
I took two back
I'm not even close this time
And thats a fact
All I know is that we'd be the perfect match
So where you at love?
I just gotta find you, yeah.

I wanna know, I wanna know
Your name, Your name, Your name
Why you gotta be anonymous?
I gotta know, I gotta know
Your name, Your name, Your name
Why you gotta be anonymous?
Baby I want you so much
Wanna hold, wanna feel your touch
Come fast girl I'm in a rush
Why you gotta be anonymous?
I wanna know, I gotta know
Your name, Your name, Your name
Why you gotta be anonymous?

[BRIDGE]
What's your name?
Anonymous
Where you at?
Anonymous
When I think about you I get a rush
I wanna meet my Ms.Anonymous

[VERSE 2]
Only see you when I close my eyes
We on borrowed time
When I delayed the sunlight
Everything I tried to tell you I failed to
Maybe I'll tell you another time
How you keeping me so pre-occupied
Got a strong hold on me
Pay me no never mind

I thought I took one step
I took two back
I'm not even close this time
And thats a fact
All I know is that we'd be the perfect match
So where you at love?
I just gotta find you, babe.

I wanna know, I wanna know
Your name, Your name, Your name
Why you gotta be anonymous?
I gotta know, I gotta know
Your name, Your name, Your name
Why you gotta be anonymous?
Baby I want you so much
Wanna hold, wanna feel your touch
Come fast girl I'm in a rush
Why you gotta be anonymous?
I wanna know, I gotta know
Your name, Your name, Your name
Why you gotta be anonymous?

What's your name?
Anonymous
Where you at?
Anonymous
When I think about you I get a rush
I wanna meet my Ms.Anonymous

[VERSE 3 - TIMBALAND]
Is ya name MaryAnne,
Or KathyLee?
Wanna hold my hand?
Come get with me.
Which dime wanna ride?
Everything on me
Girl you aint gotta lie
Tell me what's it gon be
I gotta know, I gotta know [x7]
Bobby V Bobby V Timothy Timothy
Tell them bring in the hook baby

I wanna know, I wanna know
Your name, Your name, Your name
Why you gotta be anonymous?
I gotta know, I gotta know
Your name, Your name, Your name
Why you gotta be anonymous?
Baby I want you so much
Wanna hold, wanna feel your touch
Come fast girl I'm in a rush
Why you gotta be anonymous?
I wanna know, I gotta know
Your name, Your name, Your name
Why you gotta be anonymous?

What's your name?
Anonymous
Where you at?
Anonymous
When I think about you I get a rush
I wanna meet my Ms.Anonymous

Yeah, Valentino, This another one, let's go
Ride with me girl, I been looking for you
Let's go yeah